Easier Said Then Done

''Sounds stupid but,
It's like you're a drug to me
And I am addicted

Once you have it
Then you realize it's not good for you
And it cannot work;
So you quit

A while later and you start up again
And it's all rainbows and sunflowers
Ripped from grasp once again

The same process happens
And it feels like that is killing you more than the drug

A mere glint of possibility is then presented
On the near horizon, to be happy but has a large probability to fail
Every time it gets harder and harder to quit,
Even though it's a drug I don't want to give up..."