What I Wish

I wish I couldn’t move
Paralyzed
That way I wouldn’t be able to hit my mother
That way I wouldn’t slam doors
I wish I wasn’t able to talk
Mute
That way I couldn’t talk back
That way I wouldn’t yell, “I Fucking Hate You!”
I wish I couldn’t hear
Deaf
That way I couldn’t hear my parents fight
That way I couldn’t hear them yell at me
I wish I couldn’t see
Blind
That way I wouldn’t see the kids make fun of me
That way I wouldn’t see the blood flow from my arms
I wish I wasn’t born
Miscarriage
That way my family would be better off
So they could spend more time with ‘her’