Where am I?

Where's that place where you can actually do what you please?
Where's the smiles? When can there just be more happiness?
When do the "Whatifs" and dreams stop bothering you?
When do the questions?
When can you sit in God's hand and talk with him? Ask the questions to your creator, and have the answer be light.
When will time stop along with your breath and let an unknown shock kill? Leaving you there to just have the dreams and "Whatifs" come again.

There's no place that you want because it's already here but you just don't know it yet.

Trust me. . .