I'm Not

I’m not the girl next door,

I’m not what everyone thinks I’m here for,

the lyrics are from my heart,

and my head, it tosses sleeplessly at night,

in bed.

Because only you can bring me down,

only you can make my smile into a frown,

my heart is not a game,

not for you to play,

which is why I lied,

only to you,

only everyday.

Lying is not easy,

when it’s to the one you love,

despite your wants,

and needs to speak,

he wouldn’t understand.

Not my mind, but he can.

I know he can,

but he won't,

be a man