Which way is down

I'm crying now
or is it just sweat
I'm so lost
I don't know what is real

I'm bleeding
or is that someone else's blood
I'm so confused
What's happening to me

My mind is falling apart
have I ever been sane?
I don't know how to grip reality
I'm falling

I'm spinning
or am I standing still
I feel like I'm dying
but I keep on breathing

I'm breaking
or am I holding myself together
Every time I try to breathe
the air burns my throat

I'm screaming so loud
no one can hear me
Have I gone deaf
mute?

Did I die..
No because I'm burning
But I'm so cold
I think I'm going crazy

No wait
I know what this all means
It's the only think I know anymore
The only thing I can comprehend

I'm broken hearted
all alone
Trying to let my life slip through my fingers
but his memory causes me to hang on