Taking Back Words.

I am ready to be new again.

there’s been an accident
so close your eyes; let go of the wheel
will you scream?
louder now, louder now
it was love, make it hurt

we bypassed everything, went straight for the neck
I buckled at my knees
your look was priceless
it still suits you the same

I wish I could break you down
you’re vicious and romantic
(a few of my favorite things,
it’s the whole truth
and nothing but the truth)
don’t let it go to your head.

your lipstick
his collar
don’t bother angel (I know
exactly what goes on)

you’re a touch over-rated
(and a lush and I hate it)
broken down
in bars and bathrooms
everything I know about
breaking hearts
I learned from you.

passed out
we always seemed
to wake in our Sunday’s best
you are intrusive and arrogant
I am an addict for dramatics
I confused you for love.

your new head is filled with smoke
I am red, violent red.
would you prefer me
face down across your floor?
this all was only wishful thinking

silence means everything
I thought I was better
off believing everything
you said was true;
genuine and
unprepared
those words at best
were worse than teenage poetry

I won’t stand for your
hazy eyes anymore
it was never good enough
to feel right
I had a bad feeling
about this
I’m sorry it took me
so long to come around
less is more except
when it comes to mistakes

so come untie the knot
and say you won’t care
there’s no attraction
anymore
you wouldn’t live through
letters
so I’ll forget it
altogether
I’ll dare you to forget
the marks you left
across my neck
deny me all
in one breath

you need me like a bad habit
so I am ready to be new again.
a secret silenced is a secret safe
so don’t torture me with my past
remind me not to ever act
this way again.