Invisible

am i so untangible
that i've become
so unimportant
i tried to talk
i tried to yell
but you couldn't hear me;
no one could
i tried to hold you
i tried to hug you
but you always slipped
through my arms
and into another's
as if i wasn't there
do you think
about how much you hurt me
or did you never care?
when you talked to me
looked at me
held me
were you pretending
or not?
have you grown so weary
of my company
that you could dismiss me
so easily from your life
explain to me your logic
of loving and leaving
for i am truly confused
but before i am digressed
answer me the one simple question
my mouth has always longed to ask:
were you pretending,
or was it all real?