Life

This haze has fallen over my eyes.
All I can see is red.
Cold and calculating.
You wait for me to make a mistake.
To let too much slip.
In my current state.
I would like nothing more
Than to reach across the table.
That separates us.
And keep us from each other.
And put my fingers around your throat.
I want you to see how it feels.
When you can't breathe.
How it feels as the life drains out
Of your wasted body.
But in the end all I can do is stare at the floor.
Because even though I can destroy me.
I can't bring myself to destroy you.