Ignorance Isn't Always Bliss

Words are heavy,
Humans haunt me,
As I sit here in retrospect
Mulling over my stupidity.
For me to think that I could have ever been
His last thought for the day
To think that a whim of confidence
Could change the ways of the social shark tank
To think he could have been my lifeguard, my lifeline, my way out.
But he let me drown, as he stared at me from his tower,
While I sank to the bottom,
Choking on his friend's laughs and glares
If I was this ignorant,
Why is bliss the furthest thing from my mind?