The Way It Used to Be

I do all i can to make you love me
but in the end you always shove me
through the walls of an unwanted something
which makes me fell like nothing
but you say "i love you"
and i keep believing that its true
than you go and pull the same shit you use too
and now i am afraid i don't know what to do
what do i do about everything I'm going through
don't take this the wrong way, i love you
but sometimes i just feel like we grew
grew apart from what we use to be
and every thing's different, you and me
we use to be great and i loved that
but now i feel that its no longer like that
because everything i do for you to notice me
you push me away and avoid me
it might not be the way you feel
but that's just what i now have to deal
because that's just the way i see it
through m y eyes i see the one i love moving
moving farther away and in my mind i see the loving
the loving boy i fell in love with, the one in the end
doesn't act different to me when he's with his friends
who treats me like he loves me, the way you use too
half of me wants to turn and leave but
than the other half of me wants to shut
shut all the negative things that you show to me
and become the girl you seem to want me to be
i've loved you for so long
and now i'm just trying to belong
to the one who says "i love you"
who makes me feel so true
not the one who shoves me away
and goes on thinking that everything ok
i'm going to have to move on
and remember the one i once had is gone
i don't want this to be the end
but i'm afraid i'm losing you as my best friends
its now your choice to determine
determine if your my boyfriend, or a distant friends
life seems so great in your eyes
but i can't seem to realize
that maybe what you say
just maybe isn't true anyway
i don't want to be pushed away
i want everything to be the same way
us together, just you and me
the way it use to be