What have you done to yourself?

I talked to you yesterday.
A simple 'how are you?'
I never thought you be like this.
So wacked out one drugs.
When we were little everything was different.
We didn't know things like that.
'Getting high' was something that we did on a swing set.
It's hard to believe you'll be 19 soon.
What are you going to do Gary?
Spend all you money so you can buy drugs?
I heard you sold the necklace I gave you.
Imagine how that makes me feel.
I must not be much to you.
But I want to you to know,
that you're everything to me.
Not matter what drugs you do,
what girls you date,
what you do in life,
I love you.
You were always there for me when we were younger.
Always standing up for me.
Remember the last time I saw you?
You were so drunk.
Threatening to kill your mom.
You scared me.
You scared me so bad I was crying.
Remember what I asked you?
"What the hell have you done with yourself?"
Drugs won't help you Gary.
They'll drag you down to the darkest place ever.
I know what you went through Gary.
I've heard the stories countless times.
I was there when it happened.
I was the one that helped you and Ashley when you needed it.
I gave you a place to stay for weeks on end when your mom and dad when go on their alcohol binges.
You used to tell me you'd never end up like them.
Take a look at yourself.
You're too busy smoking pot to worry about anyone who's actually there for you.
I'm here for you.
And I'll always be.
I always was.
I love you Gary.