Weight I Carry

Feelings don’t make sense,
My thoughts make me tense,
But I am lost in thought,
I can gladly say that is your fault,

Twisting and turning,
It is you, for whom I am yearning,
I don’t understand what you mean,
Because you are never what you seem,

I am scared for your every move,
Yet you leave me no room to improve,
You and your mind are unsanitary,
But you are the weight I carry.