Frightened

Why is this happening to me
All these thoughts in my head
Spreading like a plague
Popping back up when I least expect it

All of them because of one person
Why can't I get him off my mind
No matter how hard I try
I can't shake off these thoughts

Why does he have this effect on me
Like an addiction that is hard to break
Making me feel weak
And unable to function

Not able to even speak to him
Frightened of what comes from my mouth
And what his response may be
Not wanting to feel embarrassed

Trying to get close to him
Is the hardest part of the challenge
always being around others
Who steal away his attention

Making me feel jealous at times
Just at the way they are able to speak to him
While I have so much trouble
All because I'm too frightened.