What Death Does

My darlings have you heard that I’ve been silent?
Have you slightest clue what’s going through my mind?
It’s just an aching in my head, it seems that all has turned to red, and perhaps I think I may be close to dead.

I know sometimes I’m happy and I smile
Is it a sin to forget how I was so close
But that’s a sin I have to hide, even though I will abide by the one time that he lied.

Someone I’ll never forget
The tricks, the taunts
I’ll remember all the days, and when the light turned into gray
It’s just a shame he passed away

I’m remembering the moment that it hit me
At first I know, I just couldn’t believe.
I thought “no, he can’t be gone”, and it all just seemed so wrong
But deep down I think I knew it all along

A boy I’ll never forget
The smiles, the tears
You can’t image how we feel, everything still seems surreal
And how I wish that what all happened wasn’t real