Okay?

Okay?
He thought i was ''okay''
What does that word mean to me
I was angry
No,not angry FURIOUS
He should know i'd never be ''okay''
I choked out the words out
''I HATE YOU''
His face stayed straight
Damn it
It didn't even hurt him
Not even a little
How pathetic of me
My heart felt like it was on fire
Not on fire but in pain
I felt like killing myself
More than before
At this moment i'll NEVER be okay