heart hurts to much

the heart of love,
that people see in me,
has shadows and darkness filled,
with hate that can be with pain of tears,
suffering this fear of pain i keep on holding on to anything,
i can to stop my self of doing things,
that bring me pain and heart breaking sadness,
my heart been through so much i think my time has come to be in peace,
go in complete sighlets,
no tears,
no joy,
no thing is here to be happy for,
but my soul be on earth, helping other people who feel like me,
and who are suffering the darkness and shadow and never happy.