Well.. This is odd.... All of those darker emotions are just gone... Just completely disappeared.. Doesn't change what I have to do. Just means I have to do it a little different....
May 17th, 2013 at 05:34am
I can't count how many times I've wanted to surrender. To drive into the guard rail. To carve my arm with my knife. To jump off the bridge. But I'm still alive. And I thank God for the strength to fight.
May 13th, 2013 at 08:16am
Maybe if I write my prayers down in a poem, I can know that I feel it.. Maybe if I have this prayer to look back at, I'll remember it... Maybe I can move forward......
May 13th, 2013 at 07:59am
There. A poem, each, for the two of my closest friends who've brought me the most pain. This one's for her. I'm pissed at them both. And I want them both to suffer. It's taking everything I've got. But I'm showing some mercy and restraint.
May 13th, 2013 at 07:36am
Just gonna leave this here. Nobody he knows will see it unless he or I wants them to. Which will only happen if I get hurt again.
May 13th, 2013 at 07:12am
If I don't beat the living shit out of one of my best friends, he should consider it a miracle. And the other should consider herself blessed if I don't emotionally rip her apart.
May 12th, 2013 at 09:46am
Let's just say this is about liking someone whom I should not like as much as I do.
May 11th, 2013 at 03:26am
I finally feel at peace. And I don't think it's going to be ripped away from me this time. I feel like God has given me something I'll be able to hold onto for some time. I feel blessed.
May 9th, 2013 at 02:55am
No more hiding. No more rolling with the punches and being passive. I am the phoenix rising in flame. It's time to burn out the darkness and fight.
May 6th, 2013 at 03:33am
Oh God, his smile and his laugh!
May 3rd, 2013 at 11:26pm