Well, as your prize I promised a long comment so I'll give it a shot. First off though, just to make sure, is this a Panic At The Disco thing?
Second, I love how in your summary you always add the rating, word count, pairing and summary things. Not sure why I do but I love it. Very good.
Third, although I'm not a fan of drug usage in stories -even though I write it too- I thought it fit into this story, the way their emotions were depicted were understanding of why they were using the drugs to begin with.
Fourth, The way you described their emotions, god the feels that poured from that was emotionally amazing. The way they loved each other but were in too much pain to do anything. I felt this in my own way and I truly love this.
Fifth, Like someone else mentioned, your opening was eye catching "breathes like he's drowning" that line was stunning.
Lastly, "I'm not very good at this." is a big fat lie xD You're amazing at this.
Firstly, I can't believe I read one of your stories to If It Means A Lot to You by A Day to Remember, because it multiplied the sadness by about 50.
The first line is amazing, "breathes like he's drowning. It's really startling, and I'm starting to think that maybe you're just incredibly gifted with good starting off points. Then I remember you're good at everything else too.
Brendon's emotions were so clear and devastating. It felt like a hand was strangling my heart. And with all of Spencer's comparisons to Ryan, just ngf!
Seriously, ALL OF THE FEELINGS. This is so freaking beautiful and horrible (because of the sad feels) at the same time. It's gorgeous. It might just be my favourite yet