August 14th, 2014 at 07:48am
@ BlackAshes20
Wow. I am honestly at a loss for words. I came on here to check on my alerts and I was just blown away by your comment. I am humbled and very flattered that you think of this story as a a beautifully written piece of fan fiction. I cannot express to you how much that means to me. Thank you for your words and for being faithful to not only the story chapters, but the emotions that rise from it. My hope was to connect with others through characters, and I hope I have done my job. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your comment. From the bottom, middle and top of my heart. :) Much love!
Goodness girl, you are going to make me cry. You're are one of my inspriations to have even started a story surrounding Patrick Stump, and to read your words makes me glow with happiness and pride. It was slightly hard to write some of the content because even though I still have both my parents who are married and are going on 29 years in January, I could never see my mother say or do the things Eva's mother did. Even I, as a mother, can't fathom the thought of belittling my daughter to the point of no return. It's a sick feeling, but I want to be able to show the side of Eva that she rarely plays. She's reluctant, in a way, to face her past because she's been able to put it away for so long. When Patrick finally breaks her wall, a flood of emotions comes through and she doesn't know what to do with them. She had never been so open about her past to someone, especially someone she cares for so much, and it scares her. I hope I was able to convey the struggle she was having with having her past coming back at her and having Patrick witness her breakdown. For anyone who is having to struggle with past memories or even the people that are in their life, I hope I was able to at least demonstrate how destructive it can be when you bottle it up inside. I wanted Joe to be her shoulder, almost like a crutch, because I think she felt more at ease with him since their talk back in LA. He broke it down and said it to her straight about how Patrick's attitude had changed for the better and that he's really happy. He was a straight shooter in that he wanted Eva to know that he respects her and her line of work, hinting that he had a feeling she wasn't out for kicks because Patrick's a "rock star" or whatever. I hope I made the right decision when it came to her finding advice. Robin Williams' death was hard to swallow, still is hard to swallow, and I wanted to dedicate this specific chapter to him. I hadn't even thought of it until I was done, but once it was, I wanted to include a dedication to a quote he had made in the movie "Dead Poets Society". It always gripped at my soul every time I heard him recite the dialogue - and it's still stands true after twenty something years later. Thank you for reading and commenting and being my cheerleader through out this story. Much love, my star! :)