Hell Bound - Comments

..yeah listen to the therapist.. talk to Bucky and please don't act weird around him because of that dream thingy
though yeah, still not sure if she can be trusted or not...

I still don't trust her.

Okay, this is some heavy shit.

My inicial reaction to this chapter, was a big fat NO!!!! just like the one I commented before. I actually left the chapter half way through. I didn't wanted to read anymore, because I knew she was sleeping next to him, and that something horrible was going to happen.

Now that I actually did some stuff and got myself tired, I came back and read it all.

So here we go...

First of all, I like the complexity that this plot brings to the story, to the relationship between them and everything that's going on. I hate that it happened, but it's interesting to read. There's going to be a lot of conflict for Jo this time. Not only because she loves him and he tortured her when he was full Winter Soldier mode, but because she can't hate him without hating herself. I mean, she was under some kind of mental control too and the did some pretty bad stuff, see my point?

And at the same time, how do you forgive him without forgiving yourself? or forgive yourself without forgiving him?. I think those 2 events are really related, even if one of those is not true. They will trigger bigger problems eventually. She will have a lot to think about, that's for sure.

Second, Apparently the first torture thing was not enough, so you add mixed way of torture, water and knives, right? And NOW!!!! ...(this is like one of those bad infomercials on tv, where they keep adding and adding stuff to the product just to make you buy it. "but there's more!!!") ...we know that she was tortured before the official torture?! WHAT THE FUCK?!

Im taking Jo, for real. she's mine now. Im going to take her to disneyland. She deserves something nice after all of this.

Fuck HYDRA, fuck them all. They broke my girl :(

Third point. I do not trust the therapist. I DO.NOT.TRUST.HER
Something bad is coming and she's in the middle of everything, I can feel it.

But you know what's going to hurt more? The confrontation. Because Jo needs to face him eventually, and even if he remember doing that to her or not, it's going to HURT soooo much to read it. Oh my god, this is going to hurt. Im too invested in this.

I knew it was him. I knew it yesterday, but that didn't make it easier to read.

Steve, where are you?!

...and with that A/N I don't know what to think about any of the stuff that Jo has been remembering.. are they real memories or is something messing with her head completely?

ya know.. I have this bad feeling about that therapist, dunno why, just do..
and if i'm right, talking to her might cause shit to hit the fan....

I kind of want what she dreamed of just now to be false, because to be honest would you be able to look at Bucky the same way, if that was really true? Sure he wasn't really in control of himself, but then again, memories of real things happening- esp. being drowned like that- is bound to make things really really weird here on out..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Then we fix what we’ve done together.” He dropped his head onto my shoulder, and I felt the metal arm wrap around me too. He held me tightly, but he didn’t say another word.

I read the first 2/3 before heading off to work, and the rest just now
Graham and the MP3, still funny how he reacts to Jo and Bucky hinting at something close to intimate towards each other
She remembers more and more stuff now, even if she really doesn't want to face the reality of it all, I think it's really good that Bucky is there for it. He knows what it's like to start remembering things that you're not too sure if they're real or now. How to handle the memories and all that

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You changed the shower scene, dont you? I just know it. the cat told me.

A lot of family scenes hehehe the 3 of them doing stuff on their own. It's like a christmas post card.

“Should I get the MP3 player?” I heard Graham mutter from the chair. I shot him a glare.
“Probably,” I told him. Then I headed up.

Fucking stitches!

And it was all fun and games, until the memories started...

So, now not only we know that Jo was tortured, we also know that they used different ways to makes her... what? forget? go crazy?

Oh, Jo. I want to hug you so much right now.
It wasn't Bucky, right?

If she starts to remember that were metal fingers the ones holding her hair, Im going to scream. SCREAM SO LOUD, IM SURE YOU'RE GOING TO HEAR ME FROM YOUR HOUSE!

You can't do that. No. No. Don't do that. Nooooo.

"Choosing to know you is one of the few good things I’ve done in my life.”

This story is playing with my feeling at every line.

He dropped his head onto my shoulder, and I felt the metal arm wrap around me too. He held me tightly, but he didn’t say another word.

Banner pose !

Hehehe. Bucky and plastic wrap.

Graham is too god damn cute for words.

I love that even though Bucky will most likely never admit it, the kid is totally growing on him.

Lame comment is lame. Tiredddddd and not enough caffeine lol.

“Put me out of my misery,” I heard Graham mutter.
“I can do that,” Bucky replied.
“For fuck’s sake. I was joking.”
“Damn.” that was so funny!! and once again, Graham stop messing with things that are awesome, like in this case, a shirtless Bucky..

“Promise me you won’t let me kill you.” He didn’t say anything at first, but then I felt him nod.
“I promise,”... are you really trying to make me cry just before heading off to work?? I mean.. Damn..

Though I love that they're slowly figuring things out.. Her actual name, day of birth and other stuff..
Awe he thought that she didn't want to talk to him because he was the reason why her real mother killed herself..
But it totally lead to a cuddle session in the kitchen, nothing bad that doesn't bring something good..

I apreciate long chapters, especially long interesting chapters. This is one of them. Im probably going to ramble a lot, be aware...

"Bucky shot him a glare and stood up in one quick motion."

Fuck pain. I need to show the kid Im a strong independent soldier.

“You know I have some shirts you could probably borrow. They might be kind of tight—but that’s probably better than being half naked all the time. I imagine anyway.”

What's this kid doing in the house anyway? Ah?AH?? you should be out, looking for a job, not in the house, pointing at irrelevant things. NOBODY ASK YOU, GRAHAM!!!

“What do you carry in that thing then?”

*whispers* Gay fanfiction.

“Put me out of my misery,” I heard Graham mutter.

I can do that too, Kid.

“For fuck’s sake. I was joking.”
“Damn.”

Im pretty sure Bucky is joking too. He likes the kid, but probably doesn't want him to know. Graham's cute, you can't deny it. it grows on you. Even is he has the special superpower of interrupting important moments (and throwing burritos at people)

The black leather thing, for a seconds, I thought it was Bucky's old clothes. The winter soldier jacker, but then I remember that in Monster he was already wearing his regular clothes.

"He didn’t know about my plans or the fact that I had got the burger thinking it would be the last one I ever ate."

My poor girl :( Im so sorry for how the world has treated you. I saw this scene as clear as water in my head. It still surprises me the ability you have to make me visualize a place, a scene, with just a few lines to describe it.

"I stopped at that place every time I went home. There was nothing special about their burgers except for the fact that it didn’t end up being my last meal."

I really like this. I dont know why. There's something really pretty at this. Maybe because of what the burger thing symbolizes. Clever line.

"I dropped a shirt onto his lap"

DAMN YOU, GRAHAM!

How the hell did you come out with the vowels/knives code?

12 is prettier than 13, so good for her and her new birth date.

“I was there when she died. I was the reason she jumped.”

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“What did she look like? Do you remember?”

aw, man. This is sad. Her mom its not her mom, and now she knows the real one died. Not a picture, not a word, nothing.

“So they would have known. If she’d given birth recently.”

What kind of horror/thriller story is this?! Poor woman. Jesus, giving birth must hurt like a bitch, and minutes later she's running?! killing herself?!

"He was good at falsifying information."

Was? no chance at all that he can do that to help Bucky? give the man a new ID.

“When you said they were looking for me and they just didn’t know it was me.”
“They must have known she had a child"

BRILLIANT

"They must have assumed you were just a soldier with a memory they wanted to keep locked away"

Bad luck is Jo's middle name. (what's her middle name anyway?) (this is the part where I was confused. that's why I asked)

“I have no talents. No weird skills. I’m just—an average person. Average Jo.”

You're a wizard, Jo. Im a what? a Wizard. (Let me know if you don't know where's this from)

“You think they want to use me to take on the Avengers?”

It would be painful, but I would LOVE to see Jo against the Avengers. Average Jo... EVIL JO. Oh, shit, that would be interesting. Evil Jo and the struggle of everybody around her to stop her without hurting her.

"You could destroy me too"

Destroy them all but not Bucky :( Neither Steve, they have enough already without all the world wanting them dead. Plus, they are old.

“I think they’re going to make you kill me.”

DONT YOU DARE!!!

“You could stop me.”

“But I wouldn’t. Not if it hurt you.”

IM WARNING YOU, INDY! DONT DO THISSSSS

Oh, good lord. This chapter has a little of everything. A wild adventure to read, but I enjoy it a lot. I dont know why, I like it. It was pretty, and meaninful and cute. with some dark information that made me hate you, but still.

You know I can't let go of some stuff, and in this part Im probably overseeing things. But the relation that Bucky and Jo have so far, its interesting.

He doesn't remember, just a little bit, images, sounds, things. She remembers everything. And yet, they bond like they've been together since forever. The hugs, and touchs and everything. It's like it doesn't matter if makes sense or not, or if has explanation. They feel something and act acording to that, and to me, that's so sweet. It's like, being together feels right to them, been in eachother arms, the kisses, the sex, the hugs... it's weird, but in my head makes sense somehow and I like it.

Jo's like "I dont care if you remember me or not, if this feels right for you, I'm in"
Bucky's like "I dont remember everything about you, but come here"

I dont ven know if IM making any sense, but that's all for today. Sometimes I can't really explain why I like things, but I like the way it felt when I read it, so that's good.

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CHAPTER 30 ALREADY?!!! HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!
Every day we are a little bit closer to Bucky leaving...

“I honestly don’t even care what they want me for. I don’t care if what you think is true or not. I don’t care if they show up tomorrow or next week or never at all. I just—don’t care.”

This is so sad. i imagine what she must be feeling, the frustration, the fear, to know that you can't have what you want and that everything in your life isn't what you thought it was... I dont see a way out.

Raccoon!!!

“Because I know what it’s like to be tortured."

I hate you

“I see things I can’t make sense of. Nothing coherent. Just—pain. And fear. I think I’m losing it.”

Why are you doing this to her? to me?! Jo I love you, leave Indy, come with me.
Even when it's not the best way to do it, she's dealing with everything a lot better than how I'd deal with it. She's not screaming and crying and breaking stuff... probably that's gonna backfire later.

Russell must be in a loooot of trouble after all he has done.

Jesus, 3 days? 3 days of torture?!

“You think I saw…”

“Me.”

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MYGOD
I thought about that possibility, but I drop it I dont know why. Dude, duuuude, this is big. you're gonna give us a flashback? a memory from that moment? Maybe it was Bucky the one that triggered all the memories back. She saw him beforeeeeeeeee, maybe when he was unconscious!!! On that FUCKING MACHIIIIIINEEEEE
Im losing it
Im losing it too!

Jesus christ...

I need another tea.

GOOSEBUMPS!!
That's kinda all i've got..
my mind's too scattered atm.. from a TWD season 4 ep that was nuts and then my fav. hockey team here in Sweden making it to the finals- their first finals in 10 years.. so yeah.. sorry, next chapter I promise to drop a better comment

Short chapter, but nice.

One quick question, in this universe, Iron man 3 is going to exist or not?

Pregnant-extremis-Clara would be something hahaha but I get it if you decide to keep the storyline apart from that. Just curious.

I dont want Bucky to leave :C that means helicopters shooting at him and bad people kicking his face... seriously, what's with the face?! Kick somewhere else, people!!!! The guy is huge, there's a lot of space!!

Excited about the next one, I really dont know what to expect.

Yeah Bucky, don't you dare say goodbye, i'll kick your ass if you do

Leaving to keep ppl safe.. Well who's to say that when he leaves they'll make their move and grab her, maybe they already knows where they are but they're waiting for him to leave??
seeeee ideas like that pops into my head when you're not writing A/N's to get my mind to stop

Hah, I gotta say that I do wonder what Bucky and Steve thinks about the fact that women in the military/army/navy (whatever) isn't frowned upon anymore
Since it wasn't that extremely popular to have Peggy around back in the 40's

hahah that was the best way to keep her from asking things... tell your sister how much sex you're having
ooh so she got the name of the uncle confirmed now..
poor thing she's got a lot on her mind now.. (I know something that'll occupy her mind for a while )

Some points about this chapter.

1.- “No, we just have a lot of sex, Clara," I told her.
I don't think I even need to explain this. I laughed a lot. It was exacty what I was thinking "Dude, just tell her this" And pum! she did! Amazing reply.

2.- I wonder is Bucky was listening at the other side of the door. Hearing that he was a "thing" "for fun" hahaha must be amusing.

3.-“I promised Sam and Steve I would tell them if I knew anything"
You're in trouble young lady, a lot of trouble.
Have you seen than meme from Tumblr about Thor/Heimdall and Steve? the one that goes like "He can see everything over the universe" And Steve is like "2 years, Thor. I've been looking for Bucky for 2 years"

That's exactly what I think Steve is going to say when he find out the truth

Oh and about the comment on the other entry. Anytime, girl :D

aawe noo, don't shut him out, standing up there when he can't get down on his own, the poor thing.. though.. sure I bet it's not fun to hear about his theory, that the family she thought was her family might not be that..

the location thingy.. might be where russell is hiding? or he's got something hidden there that will give her some answers?
the whole mystery code thing.. hmmm..

ya know, kinda get these ideas while reading, and then sometimes with your A/N's you totally make me question my ideas and I just decide to give up and wait til you let something slip between the cracks

Poor Bucky, he's really trying to help her find out the truth and stay safe, but Jo's making it really hard for him to do anything. Dont get me wrong, I understand her reaction, but Jo... girl, you need to stop trying to deny reality. Your life is a lie and it's time to find out what the hell its going on...

does this mean that we are going to meet her parents? (the fake ones)

OMG, does Clara know about this?

I never trusted her, you know that...

big bomb on this update.

"They fight harder and dirtier."

This was a perfect description of parents.

And man, Russell... all those years next to his daughter without knowing it? no, he knew, but he had to keep it a secret... crap, my head is a mess.

All I know is that Bucky is really trying to find her true story, when he should be focusing his attention in his own memories. Maybe Jo's not the only one denying things. Is he avoiding his memories by helping her?

see? I can make a decent comment, I can be civilized.

And now we wait...