bye the summary alone i'm deleting my whole existence
now the fic
WHY! MUST! YOU! HURT! ME! THIS! WAY!!!!
scenarios in which dazai fails to save chuuya from corruption is one of my favorite things to consider and play around with. how would he react? would he let it show? how would his daily life change, with both odasaku and chuuya on his back now?
you portrayed such a scenario so beautifully and upsetting that my eyes got misty.
"I never hated you, you know." He wasn't sure where that had come from, but the words spilled from his lips in such a natural manner. One could almost say they were sincere.” GOD!!!!! DAZAI U SHIT U CARE U CARE SO MUCH!!!! in his own horrible way, he cares about chuuya, there’s no doubt. whether it’s as much as he used to or not, it’s clear he has a history with chuuya that won’t be wiped by some incessant teasing and insulting.
OH GOD DAZAI’S APOLOGIES. IM CRYINGJEKE HETHIS IS UNFDAIR. the last time dazai made me so emotional was the infamous Odasaku Scene from Hell. that had me bawling. and now you’re doing it again. how are you so talented. teach me.
HUHHHH THE LITTLE FLASH INTO THEIR PAST I’M SAD. he could’ve lived a completely different life when it came to chuuya if he had chosen to be genuine and i’m aching bc he’ll never get to know what that could’ve opened up for the both of them.
DJSKSKND DAZAIS CRYING DAZAI HAS CHUUYAS HAT LEAVE ME ALONE IM A MESS FJSKEIIWNDKANKS NOWINNO NO JO NO
i think, even if dazai is more emotional here than usual, it 1) worked very well for the piece and 2) could very well happen because he can only go so far before some sort of emotion breaks free, he’s human and his time will come again. we've seen it happen with oda and it's not hard to believe it would happen again when faced with something like this. the final words of this story nearly burst the floodgates oh my goodness AAAAAAH
(i was also listening to this while i was reading like. why do i keep doing this to myself omg.)
you handled this fantastically & now i’m off to sob thank you
now the fic
WHY! MUST! YOU! HURT! ME! THIS! WAY!!!!
scenarios in which dazai fails to save chuuya from corruption is one of my favorite things to consider and play around with. how would he react? would he let it show? how would his daily life change, with both odasaku and chuuya on his back now?
you portrayed such a scenario so beautifully and upsetting that my eyes got misty.
"I never hated you, you know." He wasn't sure where that had come from, but the words spilled from his lips in such a natural manner. One could almost say they were sincere.” GOD!!!!! DAZAI U SHIT U CARE U CARE SO MUCH!!!! in his own horrible way, he cares about chuuya, there’s no doubt. whether it’s as much as he used to or not, it’s clear he has a history with chuuya that won’t be wiped by some incessant teasing and insulting.
OH GOD DAZAI’S APOLOGIES. IM CRYINGJEKE HETHIS IS UNFDAIR. the last time dazai made me so emotional was the infamous Odasaku Scene from Hell. that had me bawling. and now you’re doing it again. how are you so talented. teach me.
HUHHHH THE LITTLE FLASH INTO THEIR PAST I’M SAD. he could’ve lived a completely different life when it came to chuuya if he had chosen to be genuine and i’m aching bc he’ll never get to know what that could’ve opened up for the both of them.
DJSKSKND DAZAIS CRYING DAZAI HAS CHUUYAS HAT LEAVE ME ALONE IM A MESS FJSKEIIWNDKANKS NOWINNO NO JO NO
i think, even if dazai is more emotional here than usual, it 1) worked very well for the piece and 2) could very well happen because he can only go so far before some sort of emotion breaks free, he’s human and his time will come again. we've seen it happen with oda and it's not hard to believe it would happen again when faced with something like this. the final words of this story nearly burst the floodgates oh my goodness AAAAAAH
(i was also listening to this while i was reading like. why do i keep doing this to myself omg.)
you handled this fantastically & now i’m off to sob thank you