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Aw, that letter nearly made me cry!

I can't wait till Gerard comes over :)

Great update.
The letter made me cry :'[
Anyway, more soon?

I couldn’t sit down and read it, I have to analyse it as I go along.
I hoped, for a small moment, that he’d relent and say yes.

“I can’t, Frank. You know that.”

My heart sank. Images of me and my Dad sitting on the couch all day, watching movies and drinking a shit load of lemonade, vanished completely.
Does that man ever take a goddamn break? He’s going to work himself to death, honestly. It’s only a matter of time before Frank starts believing he’s lost both his parents instead of just losing one.

I miss being young enough to call you guys Mummy and Daddy.
I loved how he sort of reverted back to that childish state. I’d like to read other letters that he has written to his mother.

Save both of us. He needs saving, saving form himself.
I find it a bit funny how Frank said to his dad “Got to go and play superman, hey?” and then he’s asking his mum for her to save them both.

Why couldn’t you have just eaten Mummy? Why did you just give up?
I wish Frank would listen to himself. I could imagine if things progressed and got worse that Gerard would kind of say the same thing to Frank.

I play for you a lot. Can you hear me?
Once again, it sounds like something a little kid would say. Throughout the whole letter, I could imagine Frank with a small, younger voice. The whole letter is like something a child would write to their parents, like how he doesn’t understand why he’s mother doesn’t eat.

Every time I thought about it a huge smile would somehow shape itself on my mouth, I couldn’t stop. And, in a way, I felt like Gerard. Like I just couldn’t stop smiling.
I loved that last part, but it made me sad. Because I think that Gerard’s hiding something underneath that smile, and it’s the same for Frank as well, he’s hiding something. But, at the same time, it made me happy that something does make him smile these days.

It was beautiful Kat, you know how much I adore this story.
Oh, and thank you for helping make my day by updating this.
:arms:

I believe Frankie has an eating disorder.
So throughout the entire story I had been picking up tiny hints.
Frank forcing off his hunger and falling asleep, carrying the pizza to his room but refusing to eat it, thinking he had fooled Gerard at the pool when he insisted he had already eaten, blacking out in the hallway and then scarfing down the food.
I believe he is bulimic because when he did scarf down the food he showed and automatic disgust and resentment toward himself and then he casually excused himself to the bathroom where he more than likely purged.

It kills me seeing the things that Frank struggles with, the loss of his mother, the distance of his father, his potential or current eating disorder, it’s as if he is punishing himself for all that has gone wrong in his life.

I adore how Gerard is truly in sync with what Frank feels and thinks and he seems to be the first person to actually look at him skeptically enough to realize Frank’s mischievously conniving little lies. Frank believes that he has become so experienced at his profession of lying, believing that no one will ever catch him but then on the first day of school he sets his sights on Gerard; the one man who is ultimately his match and see’s right through his cheery, chipper disguise.

Gerard’s concern and care is truly a lovely thing and certainly seems to be something that Frank is both lacking and deserving of. It’s as if Gerard is the light hearted person whom Frank has been craving the attention of seeing as his father is never home and his mother has passed away, Frankie is virtually alone. Sure, he has so many friends at school but it’s as if they aren’t friends at all for they know nothing about the real Frankie. They don’t really understand what’s going through his mind everyday and find it incomprehensible that anything could be going wrong at the core for he is such a vivid liar, making sure to keep his tracks covered. Gerard might indeed be the only one who knows the most about him and he barely knows a thing about him…

For some reason, however, the continuous smile on Gerard’s face makes me a bit suspicious, especially when his smile matches Frank’s fake one. Is Gerard lacking honesty as is Frank? Burrowing in a hole and storing his secrets from the rest of the world? It’s as if they both seem to have a deep dark secret and might it possibly be that Gerard’s is connected to the loss of his father? Does it run a bit deeper than “Oh, he left after Mike’s was born”?

This story has me rather intrigued, I adore it [:
I’m subscribing, please do update soon.

Love that shit! Frank is totally falling for Gerard, and Gerard smiles around Frank all the time because he likes him too.
Pretty sweet.
And im guessing Frank brought up his food in the bathroom?
Tut tut. I'm sure Gerard had an idea - he's very perceptive.
Urgh. Franks dad needs to pay him some attention.

More soon!

Heeeeeeeeeeeeey!
I can't believe I haven't commented in such a while but I loved the last chapter and seeing as how everyone else is speaking there theories about the boys feelings and such. I agree about eating thingo being about control, and love from someone who is genuinelly concerned.
Frank is attracted to Gerard because Gerard is Gerard and is someone who is always so cool and happy and the fact Gerard likes spending time with Frank so Frank is probably feeding off human company and makes him feel liked/loved! (Just make it sound worse than it is. Lol)

You guys up there ^ said maybe he was either turned on or Gerard actually notice how thin he was. (This is going to be embarrassing if I'm wrong. Lol) Gerard was so turned on by the way Frank was drinking! In movies and everything you always see those freaking hot as slow motion scenes of smokin hot guys drinking (while sweaty and breathing heavy hehe) in that way. Everything about the scene screams 'holy fudge that's hot!' Lol. AND notice how she said Gerard looked down a little bit! Guess what's down from his eyes! His lips! Which just had water trickling out of them in the sexy way it happens.

That's my theory ^_^
I loved the update so much, you can practically feel it falling into place even if its antagonizing for me at the pace. Lol. But I like the way your going slow, torture is fun. Haha. Uh.....Oh I agree with girl up there how you described Gerard realy hot. I always find real life people hotter described in stories rather than by sight. But still Gerard is so gorgeous in his unique way and I never used to know who Frankie was but now I'm like 'I freakin love Frank!' Lol. I thank everyone who writes storys and promotes them for that.

Xx Kirsten

P.S (Haha) comment me so we can talk!

I'm interested in Frank's lack of eating.
I'm excited to see how it turns out.

I'm so glad you updated it.
It was an awesome chapter.

fuck-shit:

Why has no one commented on the fact Frank is practically starving himself? Everyone is talking about this sleepover and not even picking up on the fact Frank has a potential eating disorder :shock:

Amen :file:
You can totally tell that Gerard knows something is up in this chapter.
My eyes slid open and I found myself staring up at a gorgeous face. I smiled.
I would have smiled also, had it not been for the fact that Frank fainted.


“When was the last time you ate?” he asked, his expression serious. It was odd as this was the first time I’d ever seen him serious like this.

“Last night.”

“How much did you eat?”

“I don’t know, a normal amount?” I put forward. “Let’s go play soccer already.”

I tried to push past him but he didn’t budge. “When you eat something.”
I wonder if in the end this kind of concern is going to make Frank want to end the friendship.

“Thank you,” I mumbled. “Hey…do you reckon I could just visit the bathroom before I start playing? I’ll meet you over there.”

Gerard gave me a funny look. “Uh, sure. Don’t be too long.”
Gerard totally knows he's gone to throw up. I know it. But I thought that he'd say "I'll go with you" or something along those lines. I was kind of sad when he didn't.

He started walking over to the oval with his hands shoved into the pockets of his pants. I couldn’t get the look he gave me out of my head. It was just burning into me.
Follow him to the bathroom Gee. FOLLOW HIM.


Handing the bottle back to Gerard I noticed that he was biting his lip. I raised an eyebrow at him and he quickly let go of his lip and smiled, his eyes darting down for a moment.
It's either he's getting turned on, or he's seriously concerned about Frank's eating problems. I like to believe it was the second one, and when Frank was drinking, he really started to notice how thin Frank actually was becoming. I don't know, I'm just throwing ideas out there.

The only reason I'm extremely interested by this sleepover is that at a usual sleepover you eat a heap of junk food. So I think it'll be interesting to see what happens with that, and how Gerard reacts to things.

Beautiful as always Kat, this chapter made my day, honestly. I can't wait for more :)

*Shoves food down Frank's throat* EAT DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love this story, although I did cry in a few parts, but thats okay, I usaully like stories that have emotion in them, they have substance.
and Gerard was watching Frank....hmmmmmmm.....
update soon???
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Why has no one commented on the fact Frank is practically starving himself? Everyone is talking about this sleepover and not even picking up on the fact Frank has a potential eating disorder :shock:

I can't believe he fainted, I was a little confused as to why he fainted at first I forgot all about his not eating but then when I remembered my stomach actually flipped, and I know he went to the bathroom to throw up the little bit he actually ate.It was disgusting how fast I basically shoved it down my throat. I think that line gave ALOT away, and I have to admit it's painful knowing that he's doing whatever he is doing to himself.

However, I have to admit I don't really blame him, he's striving for his fathers love, he's mourning with the death of his mother and dealing with the fact he's been moved house again and had to of left his mates behind. I can see where he's coming from, everything must be so lonely and out of control in his life and maybe by not eating he'll gain a bit of attention and love from his father. I really want to give him a hug, I swear to god.

You're too good at this :file:

I also like the fact Gerard is very clued up, and although he's confident and smiley and what not he's very observant, and seems to notice most of the things Frank thinks he hasn't. I wonder how Gerard's going to approach his worries, maybe he'll bring it up at the sleepover. I hope he does, before Frank spirals out of control.

Anyway, about the sleepover, I can't wait to know what's going to happen. I think Frank is starting to realise his feelings, or his feelings for Gerard are starting to progress from more then the friend stage and I think it could be due to the fact that he is the only one who seems to be paying significant attention to the kid, and seems to care for him. So Frank is subcontiously, attracted to Gerard and the comfort of him therefore developing feelings he is transferring to romantic feelings. [that didn't make sense but I know what I mean :/]

I don't know if Gerard has any feelings for Frank, to be quite honest, I think he just genuinly likes him as a friend- maybe a potential best friend. But, he'll probably develop them over time. But yeah I don't know about that side of the story, I'm still in the dark about it. And, if a relationship did develop between the two, I don't know if Gerard would be willing to invest himself into someone as emotionally damaged as Frank, because, like, Gerard must have his own problems to deal with aswell so yeah.

Anyway, I love this story so much and I think it's one of my favorites at the moment! I can't wait for an update, please please please let it be soon!

:arms:

You're amazing.

Ohh I am so excited for their little sleep over. How smexy ;)
Great update, as usual. Gosh I'm running out of things to say...
More soon?? =D

OOUUUU!
HE WAS BITING HIS LIP!
-jumps up and down-
update soon please?
I love it :)

Lol. He's different because he lurves you dumbass!
I really liked this update. Your description made Gerard actually seem hot. In reality, I actually don't find Gerard to be 'sexy' or whatever. I think he's gorgeous, but I don't lust after him like a lot of girls do. And your description actually made him seem really sexy. So great job!

I'm loving this, so far.
It's very different to a lot of Frerard.

I look forward to another update. :cute:

Whoa! Fuck-shit did leave you a long comment.
It's like....my length.
I'm glad you're getting more recognition for this story. Because it deserves all the recognition it can get.

When I got home, the house was empty not that it was so surprising. I sighed into the silence and let my bag drop to the ground. My stomach grumbled and a pain shot up my middle. I ignored it.
Sad on two accounts. Number one, because Frank's father isn't there, and number two, Frank's stomach pains. I don't why, but just the way the stomach grumbling was worded kind of simply, it was as like how you'd write I blinked my eyes a few times. It's just so...normal for Frank I guess.

In the kitchen there was a stack of dishes; Dad had obviously been home today but not long enough to see me, of course. I gritted my teeth and squeezed my eyes together.
Adding on from my previous statement about Frank's hunger, is he gritting his teeth and squeezing his eyes because he's in a lot of physical pain from not eating? Because that's how it came across to me, and I like how you don't go into too much detail about how much it hurts. I like that, well, I don't like that Frank's eating disorder...oh you get what I mean. (:

“Dad at work?”

“Yup,” I replied, adding some forced cheer.

“So what about Friday? Is it all good?” Gerard asked, changing the subject quickly.
Don't know why...but Gerard changing the subject quickly made me sad also. Heaps of parts of this story makes me sad. But this bit, because I don't know...I guess because I want Gerard to say something to kind of cheer up Frank a bit, and I guess this is his way of cheering him up. But still, it'd be nice for Frank to open up to someone.

“Nah,” he laughed. “She likes me but I don’t like her. She’s too…I don’t know. I just don’t like her though.”

I let out a single breath that I wasn’t even aware of holding.
He totally has a thing for Gerard. :file:

“Ssssh, hang on a moment,” she whispered, her expression locked in a frown. She shook her head slightly and the little trinket things she had in her hair jingled. Her style was unusual, like hippy meets Bollywood.
I love Charlie. If Frank wasn't kind of happy where he is now, I would've killed for him to go back to where Charlie lives. Where does Charlie live anyway?

“But this one, in the middle, is confusing me. It signifies hunger, but with this reading I’m unsure if it’s emotional, physical or mental. I just don’t know."
It saddens me that part. It's like, the closest anyone's actually come to finding out what's going on with Frank. Again, I find myself wanting Frank to open up to someone, just let anyone see what he's seeing. I'd kind of give anything for that.

It amazes me how attached I am to this Frank. I don't normally get attached to characters in stories too quickly, but Frank I do.

“What kind of parent forgets to pick their kid up half an hour after they called? I know he’s a doctor, I know he’s busy but that doesn’t excuse him forgetting to pick you up from school the one day he said he would, Frank,” she whispered back.
I felt like crying. What kind of father forgets to pick up his son? I don't care if he's a doctor, he needs to go and take some serious parenting lessons, honestly. His dad makes me so angry. Frank is your only son, and you completely ignore him. I like how Charlie had some clue on what was going on in Frank's life. Does she know anything anymore?

I missed her. Missed her so much. I wish I could call her but she’d probably be asleep.
I know how it feels Frank, I know how much it hurts.
I talk to this guy as if he's real. (:

I took a deep breath and turned to the first page. The first picture was of me, my Dad and her. She looked so thin, so…skeletal.
I'm just wondering if Frank kind of picked up the disorder because his mom had it? I don't know, I'm just musing.

And, even now, I can feel the hollowness I felt when I heard the monitor, attached to my mother, stop beeping.
He...he was there?

Okay, brilliant as usual, but you don't need me to tell you that. You already know it. So update when you get the chance, I won't pressure you because I'm lazier than you are, and it'd be hypocritical of me. (:
I hope I've been fuck-shit's comment in length.

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Oh my! Thanks so much for recommending this story to me! As soon as I started I just couldn't stop it's absolutely amazing! What have i been missing :cheese: The story line is brilliant and I like the way that its not like, cliche, like Frank has some cool ass life and he goes to school and meets the perfect boy and all is roses and butterflies you know? I'm glad we get to experience some of his former pain and stuff.

I think the way how you've portrayed Frank's self esteem is brilliant. I like the way how he's so good at pretending to be confident and cool but inside he's just a scared lonely little boy, like he probably has been since his mother died It's all very realistic, as is the fact that his dad goes to work to escape his own pain.

The last chapter I'd have to say was my favorite, it was so emotional. I think its great you've added the memories of Charlie and the tarot cards, thats very original! I don't know much about card readings and stuff but I have read a few books on them and they seem really interesting so I like how that kind of gives the readers a slight insight into the direction of the story.

However I have to say I'm very very concerned about Frank's eating habits! he doesn't seem to eat at all and the tarot card didn't help much, Hunger? I think its a great metaphor for everything he's feeling. He's probably hungry for his fathers love and attention seeing as he has nothing stable in his life, not even his friends or home, his father should be there for him; yet the weird thing is, I don't dislike his dad. I feel just as bad for him as I do for Frank- almost. He too is a victim in the vicious life style, he just has a different ethic to deal with it!

Also, the fact that your always highlighting Gerard smiling makes me wonder, is he doing the same thing as Frank?- hiding behind a perfectly confident and happy exterior? Maybe I'm reading into it too much, but it could be a possibility seeing as he somehow seems to pick up on some of the problems with Franks home life when no one else does, maybe he recognizes the signs because he's experienced similar things, like with the absence of his own father. I don't know if thats what you intended, but if you did its very clever! while we're all focused on Frank your secretly hinting to Gerard's own sadness, yet most people miss it and take it for what it is- a smile.

Oh oh and also, I want to praise you for making Frank play the piano instead of guitar for once. That is definitely and original twist,it's good to see a new sort of Frank than the one we're used to in stories. So kudos to you dear. :arms:

On a lighter note, before I forget, I like the bits you added about Frank being away with the fairies, they made me laugh :XD. I am a huge fan of this story already and I can't wait for an update! :arms:

edit: Also, I love the fact that Frank and Gerard play soccer and aren't atomatically made to be like the cliche rockers you know? I think it's great that they are more normal and actaully have loads of friends and stuff it makes it all the more realistic!

I think I know how Frank feels.
Ouch.
Mikey is such a geek, lol =]
xo

Wow.
I cried but at the same time I was really happy.
It was kinda, like, bittersweet.
Anyway, great update :]
More soon?? =D

Wow... I have so much I want to say about this. I just came across it, and honestly, I love it. It's different. It's sad, yet happy. Cheerful, yet depressing. It's real, yet fake. It's everything that life is.
The words you use are placed together beautifully.
I adore the balance between description and dialog. Not too much nor too little of either.
I love the small flashbacks that are brought in, being able to see Frank's past makes me happy.
I also adore the fact that most of Gerard's life is a mystery to Frank making it seem real.
All in all, you have skills, m'dear.

Sorry about any spelling or grammer mistakes. I'm on my phone so it's hard to pay attention to all that.