Don't Give Up On Me Yet.
with time brings change.
It's a wierd feeling.
Having someone else
growing inside of you.
You grow up and as a kid say
"I'll never have kids"
but then it happens
and you couldn't be more happy about it.
or at least thats how I feel.
I'm a 21 year old
who's 7 months pregnant
living alone
in a small town in south Jersey.
Where's the dad?
psh I have no idea
so if you find him gimme a holla alright?
But all that aside
I've never been happier.
except the fact that my stomach
is the size of a watermelon
and I look like a cow
but I guess it comes with the situation.
My mom kept telling me I looked horrible
she was never the nice one in the family
but my dad on the other hand
told me I was beautiful.
and honestly
I felt it.
I've never felt so good about
myself
even if I was a bazillion pounds.
" Paige....earth to Paige "
I blinked my eyes twice
brushing the thoughts from my head
and turned in the direction of my
little brother Jeremiah.
" hm? " I asked
not even bothering to use an actual sentence.
I didn't talk a lot any way.
" can you drive me to New York please please please? I wanna go to the TRL studio and see it before I leave for California " he begged.
Yep my brother just graduated high school
and was going to some school in Cali.
I was proud of him
he did something I never did.
Go to collage.
I nodded sending him flying off the couch to get his shoes.
Maybe by then I'd be off the couch.
My brother smirked from the door way as I tried my hardest to get of the couch.
one disadvantage to having a huge stomach.
you can never get off the couch.
" shut up ass fuck and help me up " I said more angrily then I had ment to.
damn these mood swings
they do get old fast.
" yeesh no need for the language sis " he laughed helping me up.
I put my hand on my stomach.
it was a reflex now
and I felt him kick
" Jere omg " I gasped grabbing his hand putting it to my stomach.
He had never felt him kick
so I took advantage of the timing.
" Paige...its..wow "he mumbled smiling.
I laughed rolling my eyes.
" come on kid. This may be one of the last times I see you in ages so lets have a blast "
He grabbed my hand pulling me out the door
stopping for a moment so I could grab my keys, shoes and my hoodie.
I had to buy a new hoodie a month ago
cause none of mine fit me anymore.
" Paige come on! " Jeremiah yelled from the passanger seat
as I sat trying to get the seat belt on.
It was one of those times
where the damn thing kept locking
before it got anywhere near the buckle
and I'd have to start all fucking over again.
" damn it Jere gimme a fucking second " I snapped yanking the seat belt forward putting it in the buckle.
I took some deep breathes.
"I'm sorry Paige" my brother mumbled
noticing I was outta breath
from just that damn seat belt.
" its fine " I smiled turning on the car.
The sound of Army Of Freshman flooding my car.
Out of the corner of my eye I seen him looking at me.
" It's not poliet to stare Jere " I laughed.
He stuck his tounge out me laughing too.
but that emotion left as quickly as it came.
" Paige...what are you gonna do? You can't raise him on your own " he said concerned
That's Jere for ya
Always thinking about everyone else before himself.
" Jere I'll be fine. I've been living on my own since I was your age " I reasured him.
He shook his head.
" yea Paige but you didn't have a new born baby to take care of too "
I sighed.
he had a point
but I was gonna make it
I was sure of it.
" Paige stay in the car. You'll get trampled " Jere said as we pulled up by the studio
" Jere shut up. I can take care of myself " I laughed getting outta the car and looked over at the millions of girls screaming
and wondered who they could all be screaming about.
" Jere who the fuck is up there I can't see " I yelled.
Jere appeared on the ground next to me.
" I don't know. I got pushed by some 13 year old " he mumbled getting up.
god they were brutal.
Having someone else
growing inside of you.
You grow up and as a kid say
"I'll never have kids"
but then it happens
and you couldn't be more happy about it.
or at least thats how I feel.
I'm a 21 year old
who's 7 months pregnant
living alone
in a small town in south Jersey.
Where's the dad?
psh I have no idea
so if you find him gimme a holla alright?
But all that aside
I've never been happier.
except the fact that my stomach
is the size of a watermelon
and I look like a cow
but I guess it comes with the situation.
My mom kept telling me I looked horrible
she was never the nice one in the family
but my dad on the other hand
told me I was beautiful.
and honestly
I felt it.
I've never felt so good about
myself
even if I was a bazillion pounds.
" Paige....earth to Paige "
I blinked my eyes twice
brushing the thoughts from my head
and turned in the direction of my
little brother Jeremiah.
" hm? " I asked
not even bothering to use an actual sentence.
I didn't talk a lot any way.
" can you drive me to New York please please please? I wanna go to the TRL studio and see it before I leave for California " he begged.
Yep my brother just graduated high school
and was going to some school in Cali.
I was proud of him
he did something I never did.
Go to collage.
I nodded sending him flying off the couch to get his shoes.
Maybe by then I'd be off the couch.
My brother smirked from the door way as I tried my hardest to get of the couch.
one disadvantage to having a huge stomach.
you can never get off the couch.
" shut up ass fuck and help me up " I said more angrily then I had ment to.
damn these mood swings
they do get old fast.
" yeesh no need for the language sis " he laughed helping me up.
I put my hand on my stomach.
it was a reflex now
and I felt him kick
" Jere omg " I gasped grabbing his hand putting it to my stomach.
He had never felt him kick
so I took advantage of the timing.
" Paige...its..wow "he mumbled smiling.
I laughed rolling my eyes.
" come on kid. This may be one of the last times I see you in ages so lets have a blast "
He grabbed my hand pulling me out the door
stopping for a moment so I could grab my keys, shoes and my hoodie.
I had to buy a new hoodie a month ago
cause none of mine fit me anymore.
" Paige come on! " Jeremiah yelled from the passanger seat
as I sat trying to get the seat belt on.
It was one of those times
where the damn thing kept locking
before it got anywhere near the buckle
and I'd have to start all fucking over again.
" damn it Jere gimme a fucking second " I snapped yanking the seat belt forward putting it in the buckle.
I took some deep breathes.
"I'm sorry Paige" my brother mumbled
noticing I was outta breath
from just that damn seat belt.
" its fine " I smiled turning on the car.
The sound of Army Of Freshman flooding my car.
Out of the corner of my eye I seen him looking at me.
" It's not poliet to stare Jere " I laughed.
He stuck his tounge out me laughing too.
but that emotion left as quickly as it came.
" Paige...what are you gonna do? You can't raise him on your own " he said concerned
That's Jere for ya
Always thinking about everyone else before himself.
" Jere I'll be fine. I've been living on my own since I was your age " I reasured him.
He shook his head.
" yea Paige but you didn't have a new born baby to take care of too "
I sighed.
he had a point
but I was gonna make it
I was sure of it.
" Paige stay in the car. You'll get trampled " Jere said as we pulled up by the studio
" Jere shut up. I can take care of myself " I laughed getting outta the car and looked over at the millions of girls screaming
and wondered who they could all be screaming about.
" Jere who the fuck is up there I can't see " I yelled.
Jere appeared on the ground next to me.
" I don't know. I got pushed by some 13 year old " he mumbled getting up.
god they were brutal.