Knowing

His hand's they linger on my chest , there movements slow and painful.
Each one made leaves a mark due to his dirty hands.
I just lay with him on top of me allowing whats about to happen , happen.
And like that I'm pinned naked with him over the top of me.
His movements hard and fast, no pleasure forth my way at all, just pain...but I hold back the tears.
He screams my name, I mentally puke in disgust.
How I wish this was like a movie and my baby would come screaming through the door to save me...But it'll never happen.
And I don't need to be saved I'm a strong girl.
I can handle this, I CAN handles this.

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I slowly take his arm off of me and snake out of the bed.
I shower, to rid of this dirtyness.
The water hot, burning to be precise.
I scrub and scrub but it won't go away , it never does.
I look at all the cleaning products before me, none will work.
Bleach, that will rid it .
The bottle pourn on to my skin.
It burns , it's working...kinda..
The fumes make me light headed , but I continue scrubbing trying to take his scent away.

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"Baby , baby please wake up please"