Forget the Things We Swore We Meant
Realize
Jon's P.O.V.
"Hey Ryan," I called, walking towards Ryan's bunk. I wanted to work on one of our songs with him. I got to his bunk and pulled the curtain back. The bed was empty.
I let go of the curtain and went to Brendon's bunk.
"Brendon?" I said.
"Yeah," Brendon said from behind his curtain.
"Have you seen Ryan?" I asked.
"No," he said. I sighed.
"Ok," I said. He must have gotten off the bus without any of us knowing, which was odd. Our bus had stopped a few hours ago. We were currently parked in a parking lot somewhere. We had a show tonight. I took a deep breath. He had to come back for that. There was still a few hours until soundcheck. I paced around the front of the bus before sitting down.
"You ok Jon?" I heard Spencer ask. I looked in his direction quickly.
"Yeah," I said quickly.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said again. "I'm fine."
He just nodded his head and went back into the bunks. I looked at the clock. A few minutes had gone by already. Where the fuck was Ryan?
"Jon?"
"What?" I asked in a louder, angrier voice than I had meant. I looked at a startled Brendon. "Sorry."
"It's ok," Brendon said. He sat next to me. "Spencer just told me you were acting wierd. Are you ok?"
"Yeah," I said. "Just worried."
"About what?" he asked.
"Ryan's gone," I said. "He's not on the bus, and I just have this bad feeling about it."
"Oh," Brendon said. I looked at him for a moment. Something was different.
"Did something happen between you two?" I asked. Brendon looked down.
"I sort of ended things with him," he said quietly.
"Why?" I asked.
"It just wasn't working out," Brendon said. "Plus it was obvious you and Spencer were uncomfortable with the whole thing."
I didn't bother trying to deny that. I had been a bit uncomfortable with the whole thing. But to be honest, I had been getting used to it.
"Shit," I heard Brendon muttered. I looked at him. His elbows were resting on his thighs and he had his head in his hands. "I hope he's ok. I hope he doesn't do anything stupid. Shit. This is all my fault."
I was surprised to see Brendon's shoulder's shaking. I guess I hadn't thought about the fact that Ryan and Brendon actually loved each other. They were in love. What right did I have to ever question that?
I rested my hand on Brendon's shoulder.
"It's gonna be ok," I said. "I'm sure Ryan will be fine."
"Hey Ryan," I called, walking towards Ryan's bunk. I wanted to work on one of our songs with him. I got to his bunk and pulled the curtain back. The bed was empty.
I let go of the curtain and went to Brendon's bunk.
"Brendon?" I said.
"Yeah," Brendon said from behind his curtain.
"Have you seen Ryan?" I asked.
"No," he said. I sighed.
"Ok," I said. He must have gotten off the bus without any of us knowing, which was odd. Our bus had stopped a few hours ago. We were currently parked in a parking lot somewhere. We had a show tonight. I took a deep breath. He had to come back for that. There was still a few hours until soundcheck. I paced around the front of the bus before sitting down.
"You ok Jon?" I heard Spencer ask. I looked in his direction quickly.
"Yeah," I said quickly.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said again. "I'm fine."
He just nodded his head and went back into the bunks. I looked at the clock. A few minutes had gone by already. Where the fuck was Ryan?
"Jon?"
"What?" I asked in a louder, angrier voice than I had meant. I looked at a startled Brendon. "Sorry."
"It's ok," Brendon said. He sat next to me. "Spencer just told me you were acting wierd. Are you ok?"
"Yeah," I said. "Just worried."
"About what?" he asked.
"Ryan's gone," I said. "He's not on the bus, and I just have this bad feeling about it."
"Oh," Brendon said. I looked at him for a moment. Something was different.
"Did something happen between you two?" I asked. Brendon looked down.
"I sort of ended things with him," he said quietly.
"Why?" I asked.
"It just wasn't working out," Brendon said. "Plus it was obvious you and Spencer were uncomfortable with the whole thing."
I didn't bother trying to deny that. I had been a bit uncomfortable with the whole thing. But to be honest, I had been getting used to it.
"Shit," I heard Brendon muttered. I looked at him. His elbows were resting on his thighs and he had his head in his hands. "I hope he's ok. I hope he doesn't do anything stupid. Shit. This is all my fault."
I was surprised to see Brendon's shoulder's shaking. I guess I hadn't thought about the fact that Ryan and Brendon actually loved each other. They were in love. What right did I have to ever question that?
I rested my hand on Brendon's shoulder.
"It's gonna be ok," I said. "I'm sure Ryan will be fine."
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So, I got back from Connecticut on New Year's Eve, like 10 minutes before midnight lol.I want you all to know that you're lucky this got updated. I have 2 other stories, and I don't feel like writing updates for them right now. The only reason this story got updated is because 1. I started the update before I left for Connecticut, and 2. because I told someone I'd update in exchange for a banner..which I still have to find pictures for lol.
Anyways, leave a comment! :]
~Sally