Love's Requiem

“Who’s turn was it tonight?” Alex asked giving me a deep kiss.

“Michi.” I told him as he kissed me again. “Alex I need to talk to you about something.” I began.

“What’s on your mind?” He asked as he got ready for bed and got in next to me.

“I want to go home.” I told him softly.

“Home as in Croatia?” He asked with wide eyes.

“As in Baltimore, I can’t do this touring anymore, not while I’m pregnant.”

“I knew this was a bad idea.” He sighed. “When do you want to leave?”

“As soon as I talk to Stevenson.”

“Okay, I want you to stay either with your parents or mine. I don’t want you by yourself for three months.” He told me.

“Michi is going to stay with me while you’re on tour.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, she said she’d help me get the nursery together and everything as well as change up the way you decorated the house like a hunting lodge.” I explained making him chuckle.

“Okay, tomorrow I’ll take you to the airport I guess.”

“I’m sorry.” I said feeling terrible.

“You shouldn’t have come on tour in the first place. Bella you have to switch off tour mode and switch on family mode.”

“I think I have.” I sighed as I put my head on his chest.

“I love you.” He told me as he shut off the light.

“I love you too.” I yawned, as my eyes got heavy.

That following morning after a long conversation on the phone with Stevenson, everything was set. I’d leave for Baltimore the following night, and officially I no longer was all time low’s tour manager after that. While on the way to the next city, I was once again checking my email while trying to get rid of the strong urge I had to vomit up my breakfast like always. While I read through them, one in particular grabbed my attention, an email that was forwarded to me from the guy’s manager. It was from a concerned parent who seemed to not be so enthused about the guys language during shows, specifically the one we had a few days ago in New Jersey. It more or less, was him explaining he wasn’t too thrilled about the guys cursing on stage. Once I finished reading the email, and replying back to him saying it was sort of funny and that I’d show the guys, I went to do just that.

“Good morning fellas.” I smiled as I walked out holding my laptop.

“What sick porno do have to show us now? Or youtube sensation?” Jack asked looking up from what he was doing.

“Better, just got an email from a parent addressed to you four.” I said setting the laptop down.

“Huh?” a few chorused.

“I’ll read.” I said sitting down and reading it out loud to them.

“The fuck?” Alex exclaimed with a chuckle.

“It is what it is, figured I’d read it to you,” I said simply as I got up and headed back to the back lounge.

Once at the venue I hobbled around with Cobras’ tour manager as we had our walk through, and photo copied the set lists.

“So tomorrow night.” Alex told me as him and I was sitting in the dressing room an hour
before their set that night.

“You’ll be fine with out me, go easy on the new guy.” I told him as I played with his hair.

“But you’re pregnant I should be home with you.” He said putting his head on my stomach.

“You’ll be home in December and I’m due in January so what’s the problem?”

“The two months between that where I won’t be around.” He frowned, as I felt a sharp, sudden movement.

“Whoa hello.” I inhaled.

“What was that?” Alex exclaimed shooting his head right up.

“That would be one of the monsters.” I said as I felt another.

“They’re-they’re kicking?” He exclaimed with wide eyes.

“Well that or my lunch is.” I joked as he got up and ran through the hallway.

“They’re kicking! They’re kicking!” I heard his voice through the hallway as in ran in half the bands that weren’t playing as well as Jack, and Rian.

“I wanna feel!” Jack exclaimed sliding to my belly.

“They stopped.” I said shaking my head.

“Come on babies say hi to your soon to be favorite Uncle in the whole world. If you’re both boys or one of you is I’ll buy you porn if you kick for me!” He said talking to my stomach with his hands still on there.

“That won’t-“ I began but was cut off by another set of kicks.

“You’re gonna have boys!” He shouted throwing his hands up and hugging Alex.

“Oh brother.” I groaned.

Later that night after I had finished making sure I had all of my stuff packed and ready, I headed back inside for the last half hour of the guy’s set.

“So we received a very interesting email this morning.” Alex began as he waved a piece of
paper around.

“Oh no.” I mumbled as I held my belly feeling another kick.

Alex went on to read the letter, make fun of the father who wrote it and proceed to act like in my opinion a real jerk. Once the set was finished, Alex wanted to spend the last few hours with me before I left tomorrow morning, so we were in the back of the bus.

“That was a real dick thing you did Alex.” I told him as I watched the TV. “Especially for someone who is about to become a father.”

“The guy had no right.” Was his defense.

“I hope we have a girl, and we’ll see if you act the same way.” I told him.

“That’s it? No yelling at me?”

“This the last time I’m seeing you until December I won’t have it ends on bad terms. “I told him
as I put his hand on my belly as another series of kicks began.

“I love you Bella.” He told me as he kissed my temple.

“I love you too.” I replied resting my head on his shoulder.

Neither Alex or I slept that night, we stayed up the entire ride to the next city talking and planning everything for the babies.

“Just don’t turn my house in to a gypsy palace or a shrine to Ronaldo or something.” He asked me as he settled in to the hotel room they had just checked in to.

“I’ll try.” I chuckled, as there was a knock on the door.

“Bella please don’t leave me!” Jack cried as everyone walked in to say bye.

“I’ll call you every day.” I promised him.

“But it’s not the same, I’m so lost without you.” He said hugging me.

“Aww you’re still my BFFF” I told him hugging back.

I said bye to everyone, and we talked for a few more minutes until it was time Alex had to take me to the airport.

“Now please, be nice to the new guy. He should be here in two hours.” I warned them.

“We’ll try.” Rian, Zack, and Jack all said as I headed out of the room with Alex.
Alex was quite for the whole ride he looked upset, I tried my best not to show that I was too and give him a peace of mind.

“It’ll go by fast.” I told him as we waited at my gate. “Don’t worry.” I added.

“How can you be this calm?”

“Cause there’s nothing to be worried about.”

He gave me an uneasy look as I hugged him. “I love you.” I whispered in his ear.

“Which is why I should cancel the tour and be with you.” He said giving me a smile.

“I may be 6 months pregnant and all but I’ll still kick your ass.” I told him.

He groaned, and hugged me giving me another kiss. “You’re going to miss your flight.” He said as they announced my flight was boarding.

“I will call you as soon as I land and when I get home okay?” I told him.

“Who’s getting you again?”

“Niko, he’s spending the weekend with me and Michi comes Monday afternoon.”

“Good, I love you.”

“I love you too, good bye Alex.” I told him giving him one last kiss as I walked to my gate.

As I started to walk away I felt the tears build up, I couldn’t help but stop and glance back at Alex standing there who looked like he was about to cry too. I wobbled back to him giving him another kiss.

“Go Bella you’re boarding.” He told me a minute later pulling away.

“Okay.” I nodded as I rushed to the gate.

My flight home was restless to say the least. The babies kept kicking so it wasn’t like I could sleep, and I was upset and already missing Alex.
My brother picked me up from the airport and drove us back to me and Alex’s house.

“You look good sis.” My brother chuckled. “How are the babies?”

“Kicking,” I groaned.

When we got back to the house, I wasn’t in the mood for much so Niko and I watched movies and vegged out on the couch. In fact, that’s pretty much what we ended up doing all weekend.