Love's Requiem

The rest of the week I impatiently would run to the bathroom every morning only to feel more and more worried each day. Jesse told me it was because I was so stressed out and because I was obsessing over it so I tried not to think about it. Of course it didn't help that after all the hectic events leading up to and during the guys playing the tonight show, Alex lost his passport in LA so we were stuck in Seattle for another two days seeing as he wouldn't be able to make it to Canada. The upside, we were staying in a hotel so I had privacy. Alex and I had made up since our little bitch fight that happened in Utah, and now him and I were cool again though he told me countless times I was worrying him because I seemed preoccupied all the time. Then again how could I not be?

“Bella are you sure everything is okay?” Alex asked me while we were waiting for our rooms to be ready in the hotel.

“What? Yeah, yeah I’m fine.” I assured him with a weak smile.

“You just seem like you’re here but not really here.” He frowned.

“Just really tired is all.” I lied.

“Okay, but if you need me I’m here.” He told me giving me a soft kiss on my forehead before he got up and headed to the small café in the lobby.

It was the things he did like this that made me miss him and want to tell him I’m sorry, however in the current situation I couldn’t unless I knew I was sure about one little detail.
Our second day in Seattle and it was officially 8 days now and I still hadn't gotten my period. I was in the middle of trying to get Jack out of the room so I could go the bathroom to take the test without him noticing.

"Come on Bella let's go get something to eat." Jack said jumping on my bed.

"I'm really not that hungry." I told him.

"You feeling okay?" He asked as he stopped and sat.

"Stomach is messed up, do you think you could please run down to the lobby and get me some Pepto?" I asked in hopes of getting him out of the room just long enough for me to take
the test.

"Sure thing Bella." He nodded as he grabbed the room key and left.

I ran in to the bathroom with the test in my hand as I locked the door and read the instructions and followed them, just as I pulled the test out from under me I screamed in happiness, there was blood.

"Thank you god!" I shouted dancing around the bathroom.

"Bella you okay in there?" I heard Jack ask through the door.

"Uh yeah, yeah I just finally pushed it through you know?" I lied as I quickly disposed of
everything and tried to hide it all in the trashcan before I walked out victoriously.

"There was no pepto so I bought you Tums." Jack said tossing the tube to me.

"Thanks." I smiled catching them just as someone banged on the door.

I opened the door only to have Alex run in to the room and dart for the bathroom.

"Rian's taking to long to shower!" Alex exclaimed as he slammed the bathroom door behind him. "Hey Bella can you come with me to get something to eat?" He asked walking out of the bathroom.

"I'm not really hungry." I told him.

"Please just so I don't have to go downstairs by myself, plus I hear they have really good
tea." He persuaded me so I nodded.

"Okay." I nodded as I left the room with him after getting some money from my wallet.

"Why did you have to take a pregnancy test?" Alex asked me as soon as we stepped in to the elevator.

"What are you talking about?" I asked shocked.

"There were instructions for one next to the toilet. Why do you think you're pregnant?"

"Well I was late and-" I began to think.

"If I was the last person you slept with that was almost four months ago." He pressed.

"Well you know me and port-a-potties." I lied.

"You slept with someone didn't you?" He exclaimed.

So remember how I said I wasn't regretting sleeping with Niko that all just ended the second I saw the look on Alex's face.

"Who was it? It was him wasn’t it?" He asked grabbing the hand with the ring on it.

"Him has a name.”

"Why Bella? Why? Did you fuck him just to get back at me?" He shouted as the doors opened showing a very stunned Zack and Vinny.

"I did it to get over you." I mumbled storming out of the elevator and the hotel in to the pouring ran.

I walked around for what felt like forever, not wanting to go back and face Alex or anyone for that matter. By the time I came back to the hotel I was soaked freezing, and the sun had set.
I went directly in to the bathroom once I got back to the room.

"Want to talk about it?" I heard Jack ask through the door while I undressed.

"Nope." I replied as I stepped in to the shower.

"Ever want to talk about it?" He asked me later as I walked out of the bathroom in my pajamas.

"Nope." I said dismissing it and going to bed.

For the remainder of the tour, Alex and I didn't speak to each other. I don't think it was so much that we were angry at each other but just that we didn't have anything to say to one another. And, it just kind of stayed that way until I was back in New York for a week to get ready for the next tour we had.