Dreaming Up A Secret

“I was just asking…” I murmured, turning my attention back to Ronan.
“Wanna sing a song?” I asked him mischievously.
“Uh… ok?” He responded in a question of sorts.
“Ok,” I started to sing what is perhaps the most annoying song in the world, “Ninety nine bottles of beer on the wall, ninety nine bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall, ninety eight bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall, ninety seven bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety six bottles of beer on the wall, ninety six bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety five bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety five bottles of beer on the wall, ninety five bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety four bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety four bottles of beer on the wall, ninety four bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety three bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety three bottles of beer on the wall, ninety three bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety two bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety two bottles of beer on the wall, ninety two bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be one six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety one bottles of beer on the wall, ninety one bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety…” I hesitated, “ninety zero! bottles of beer on the wall. ”
“Oh god,” Alice and Tom said together.
“OH GOD!” Ronan said, only happily then echoed me, “Ninety nine bottles of beer on the wall, ninety nine bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall, ninety eight bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall, ninety seven bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety six bottles of beer on the wall, ninety six bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety five bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety five bottles of beer on the wall, ninety five bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety four bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety four bottles of beer on the wall, ninety four bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety three bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety three bottles of beer on the wall, ninety three bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety two bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety two bottles of beer on the wall, ninety two bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be one six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety one bottles of beer on the wall, ninety one bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety…” I hesitated, “ninety zero! bottles of beer on the wall.”
Tom and Alice groaned as we sang together all the way down from ninety nine too zero… then went back up.
“Ninety one bottles of beer on the wall, ninety one bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety two bottles of beer on the wall, ninety two bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be one six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety three bottles of beer on the wall, ninety three bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety two bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety four bottles of beer on the wall, ninety four bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety three bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety five bottles of beer on the wall, ninety five bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety four bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety six bottles of beer on the wall, ninety six bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety five bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall, ninety seven bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall, ninety eight bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety nine bottles of beer on the wall, ninety nine bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall.”
Ronan screamed it out louder, “Ninety one bottles of beer on the wall, ninety one bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety two bottles of beer on the wall, ninety two bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be one six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety three bottles of beer on the wall, ninety three bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety two bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety four bottles of beer on the wall, ninety four bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety three bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety five bottles of beer on the wall, ninety five bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety four bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety six bottles of beer on the wall, ninety six bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety five bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall, ninety seven bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety six bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall, ninety eight bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety seven bottles of beer on the wall. Ninety nine bottles of beer on the wall, ninety nine bottles of beer! I one were to take one down and then said one would pass it around, there would only be ninety eight bottles of beer on the wall.”
“IF YOU TWO DON’T SHUT UP SO HELP ME GOD!” Alice screamed.
“Haha, so help you god what?” Ronan was stupid enough to challenge.
“Want to find out?” She asked with an evil grin.
His face turned paler, Alice was terrifying when she acted like this, which was rarely.
Alice turned onto the radio and leaned back as the sun started to set in the sky, which was turning dark with a display of fire work colors. Ronan leaned over into my lap, yawning tiredly and collapsed immediately, his breathing alerting me he was asleep. I thought about how life must have been planned out. I wondered if it was all decided before I was born, was I destined to fall in love at such a young age, was I destined to be gay, was I destined to be so lucky with Ronan? Were people given certain bodies, ones that were already programmed to do certain things? Was my mind put into this body where is was planned out exactly how much it could take before it broke? Exactly how many times it was willing to have its heart broken? Were people born with quotas? Were their bodies programmed with the number of people they’ll sleep with, the amount of soda they’ll drink, the number of places they’d go? How long did it take for people to recognize their own quotas? Did it take a life time to figure out how many people you would sleep with? I think I already I know. I glanced down at Ronan, thinking I could never love anyone else, it would be impossible. I loved thinking about these things, because they always brought me to a good conclusion, usually one about how much I loved Ronan; Is that weird and stalker ish? I don’t think so, I just think that’s love. Which brings me to my new point: What is love? Well I’ve read a few poems in middle school about it, written reports on said poems, and felt it every time I saw Ronan, but I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it. Love was… it is… how do you even describe that? It was the warm feeling of comfort I was immersed in when ever I saw him, the spark I felt whenever his lips merely brushed mine, the way my heart skipped a beat when he ran up behind me in school, covering my eyes and whisper asking “guess who”’s in my ears. Speaking of school, how long it had been since we’d been. Lets see, we started out the year there, then when I told my dad, we didn’t go for a while well my arm healed, then when Ronan cut himself, and then again… and again, and then Alice’s cancer, then my dad beating us, now this. We had missed almost the whole year, and through leaving now we were going to miss the rest of the school year. Half of me hated this because it meant we’d have to repeat the grade, but the other half couldn’t careless because I had gotten to spend an entire school year out with my boyfriend.
“Aiden,” Tom whispered so as not to wake Ronan and Alice up, “I’m going to rent a room for the night.”
I looked out the window to see we were stopped in front of a small hotel. I resisted the urge to scream one of my favorite band’s name “Tokio Hotel” and instead nodded to Tom and quickly moved my arms under Ronan. I scooped him out of the car and stood beside Tom, who had Alice in his arms, as he locked the car up. Together, we walked into the hotel and rented a room, then took them up. Tom looked down at Alice as he laid her on the bed with the most peaceful smile I’d ever seen him wear. It just then struck me how much he really loved her. I’d known he did, but the magnitude of it was something that almost made me laugh. I bit my lip to hold in the giggle as I set Ronan down on the other bed.
“What’s so funny, Lewis?” Tom called me by my last name.
“You, Baker,” I replied, returning the favor.
He cocked his head questioningly.
“You and her.” I nodded my head towards Alice.
“Not half as funny as you and him!” He laughed, putting as much emphasis in it as he could well still whispering, glancing down at Alice to make sure she was still sleeping sounding, which she was, just as Ronan was.
I made the symbol heart, then a plus, followed by another heart
He shoved into my shoulder with an almost silent laugh.