Blackened Sight On A Clear Night

"No. If he doesn't want to, I'm not going to make him. He's not ready."
"...will you get him ready?"
"Matt, I'm not going to force him into anything. I'll do what he's comfortable with."
"Will you at least try?"
"Why do you want me to?"
"To help him... he misses out on so much..."
"How do you think he'd feel about you telling me this?"
"He'd be really pissed..."
"And he would think I'm using him."
"No..."
"He would..." she sighed.
"It's fine though, he'll be okay with it..."
"With you telling me to have sex with him?"
"Just once though!"
"I'm not going to because you want me to!"
"Why?"
"Because sex is something you do out of love!"
"So...? don’t you love him?"
"I don’t know! I like him."
"So, that's-"
"Matt! For fuck's sake! You can't let me do anything on my own, can you?" I growled.
He jumped and looked at me. "I...I'm just trying to look out for you..."
"I don’t fucking need you to look out for me!"
"Someone has to!"
"I can look out for myself."
"No you can't, Jim..."
"Yes I can!"
"I'm just trying to help..."
"I know. But I don’t need it with my non- existent sex life!"
"So...it's a natural part of life! I'm just trying to help! Don't get mad at me."
"Well what the fuck, dude? Do I look like I need that much help? If I wanna have sex, I will."
"I'm just trying to help you Jimmy. Okay? Help, not cause a bigger problem. I'm sorry."
"Well, Matt, how long has it been since I've had a girlfriend? And you're gonna ruin it by rushing her into raping me. I see how it is."
"It wouldn't be rape! I know you'd want it Jim..." He sighed and ran his hands over his face.
"if I want it, I can surely get it." I sighed.
"Don't be mad at me...I'm trying to look out for you..." He sighed as well.
"I know you are, but I can do things alone too...especially my sex life…"
"I'm sorry man." He said, more than likely looking down at the sand.
"It's fine. Whatever, I don’t care anymore."
"Dude...don't be like that..." He mumbled.
"How am I supposed to be? I can't fucking see. Am I supposed to be happy?!"
"Jimmy...relax...." He set his hands on my shoulder. "...You've done good at this point."
"So why are you trying to help with my sex life? Of all things I let you help with…."
"Because I know you're gonna get shit about it..."
"From who? People who think they're cool because they lost their virginity at 15?"
"No, but you know how shocked people get when they find a virgin rock star..."
"Yeah I know…" I said, pulling Ivy back into my lap.
"So I'm just trying to help you."
"So let's just keep it on the DL. No one has to know."
"No...But you know how stuff spreads..." He sighed again, clapping my shoulder gently.
"Yes, I know. But if no one tells, how can it spread?"
"...I don't know, but you know it happens. I'm sorry." He murmured.
"It's cool, but you know how that shit stresses me."
"I know. I'm trying to look out for you...you gonna be okay?"
"Yeah. You gonna be home later? Maybe we can chill for a bit…"
"What about our plans for later?" Ivy whispered in my ear.