Just...No.

Now, I know that I can't make you stay,
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

I ran down the street, the tears pouring down my face. I couldn't believe everything was...over.

And I know there's nothing I can say,
To change that part.
To change that part.
To change...

He had told me things were perfect, but kissed someone else. I lost my footing, and fell over, not wanting to get up. I thought I loved him. I really did. Suddenly, the road was filled with light, and the high keening of failing breaks.

So many bright lights that cast a shadow,
But can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete?

I rolled out of the way by reflex, even though I wanted nothing more then to stay where I was. I had no idea what to live for anymore.

A life that's so demanding,
I get so weak.
A love that's so demanding,
I can't speak.

I hated myself for ever believing he could really love me like he said. Then, I pulled out my cell phone to say goodbye to the only one I knew cared. But it started ringing...

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

A fresh wave of tears flew down my face. I listened to the lyrics, ignoring the person on the other end.

Can you see my eyes are shining bright?
'Cause I'm out here on the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror.
And I'm so weak.

No one would ever know how I was feeling. Some people could think...but no one could ever know.

Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete?
A love that's so demanding,
I get weak.

I slowly stood up singing to the chorus, my eyesight starting to fade.

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

I realized then, no one could know what I was going through, but that didn't mean no one cared enough. I screamed the lyrics into the night, "I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone. Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving. Nothing you can say could stop me going home."

I don't know how long I stood there, but eventually the bright blue lights of a police car filled my vision.

These bright lights are always blinding me.
These bright lights are always blinding me.

They asked me if I was alright, but I ignored them while my phone kept ringing.

I say

I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I’d never speak.
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead.

I turned my back on them and strode away, clutching my phone in my fist.

'Cause I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I’d never speak.
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead?

Ever so slowly, I pulled it towards my ear.

'Cause I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I’d never speak.
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead?

"Hello?"

'Cause I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I’d never speak.
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead?

"No, nothings...wrong."

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
(Or dead!)
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.
(Or dead!)

"Tell her I'll be home soon."

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
(Or dead!)
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.
(Or dead!)

"Just.............NO"

~*~*~

She sat through her best friend’s funeral. She had died the night she found out about her boyfriend, while talking on the phone. The girl put her head in her hands as she listened to the music playing. Not a single tear rolled down her cheek, as they had all been dried up when she found out. She only just realized they were playing a song, and listened long enough to hear the last verse.

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

The End