Can Love Be Love If Your Not Loved

As they kissed they hung onto each other tightly not thinking of letting go once, Milly's hands came out from Matt's jeans then wrapped themselves around his waist,

"I don't want to lose you" Milly whispered in the kiss,

Matt smiled then pulled away, Milly's face so small and beautiful is all he could look at to feel the person inside him awake,

"You will never lose me" he said before touching her lips with his again,

Milly started walking towards the stairs Matt had to walk backwards but still held onto Milly tightly, Milly's lips didn't leave Matt's once as they slowly walked up the stairs. When they were at the top Milly walked over to her room still clung onto Matt, as they walked over to the door Matt tightened his hold on her more he smiled in the kiss which made her giggle and smile back, the door swung open with them both stumbling in nearly falling to the floor Matt moved his kissing to her jaw when they hit her bed,

"That was a hard thing to do" Milly giggled to herself,

Matt smiled carrying on with kissing down her neck slightly nibbling it, 'would it go that far??' Milly thought as he did so, 'I couldn't go further, that would be againt the code I have to stop but I can't' Matt thought to himself as he carried on more intense, Milly let out a tiny moan when Matt had got to the bass of her neck, he nibbled on the spot and she moaned a little louder,

"Oooo that's a nice spot is it??" he said before nibbling it again,

again she moaned smiling, it made her feel like nothing could hurt her not even the littlest thing she giggled when Matt started kissing back up her neck, he got to her jaw and kissed across it till he was at her chin,

"Can I say something??" Milly asked out loud,

"Of course you can" Matt said stopping to look at her happy face,

"I love you" Milly whispered out going redder by the minute,

Matt was stunned, yes he had heard those three words before from Milly but this was proper she really really meant it. As she waited for him to say something her face went red with embaressment with a tear starting to form in her eye,

"Oh my god, Milly what's the matter??" Matt said holding her face in his hands worried,

"I shouldn't have said that" she said as the tear fell down her pale face,

Matt's face was shocked 'what can I do??' he thought of it over and over again, he started stroking her face with his thumb gently wiping away the crystal like trail her tear had left, he looked deep into her eyes they shone like crystals themselves filled with tears of embaressment and shame, 'what can I do??' he thought again hard but then he stopped and did what he thought would make the whole thing better he gently pushed his lips onto hers and let her win the fight for once, she smiled as she let her hands go behind his head so he couldn't move away, he was trapped in her hold. She wouldn't let go of him once he was completely trapped in her hold, then after a while they both pulled away for breath smiling,

"I'm sorry for saying that" she said in gasps for air,

"No don't be sorry, I'm sorry for not replying" he said laying next to her,

"What would you have replied??" she asked still breathless,

"Well what do you think I would have replied??" he smiled at her breathless face,

"I don't know you tell me" she said glaring at him for smiling,

he smiled at her glare then moved his face to her ear, he gently kissed it once and then whispered the four words she wanted to hear and he wanted to say,

"I love you too"

Milly's toes curled in on themselves when she heard those words and her glare melted into a smile, her arms wrapped around his waist making him shiver slightly as he was closer then before to her, he nibbled on her ear which tickled making her move away slightly but he followed which she enjoyed and giggled at. About 2 hours later Milly and Matt where under the covers of Milly's small double bed, Matt had his arms wrapped around her tightly as they layed there so still with Milly's arms curled up by his side so she could be closer to him,

"Can I ask you again??" Milly whispered breaking the peaceful silence,

"Ask me what again??" Matt said puzzled,

"Where did you go before I went to work?? I was really worried that I wasn't going to see you again" she whispered looking up towards his puzzled face,

Matt didn't answer which made Milly worried, she huddled into his side more moving one of her arms over his stomach and holding him there,

"Sorry I shouldn't have asked, I won't say it again" she said closing her eyes listening to his heart,

"I can't tell you how much I want to tell you but I know I don't want you hurt ever so I can't tell you at all" he said then smiled, "That made no sense did it"

"Nope, not one bit, how would where you went hurt me?? isn't it going to hurt more not knowing then knowing" she countered back,

he moved one of his hand to her chin then lifted it so her face was looking up at his, he smiled to her then sighed, she moved up a little so their faces were so nearly touching one of her legs moved up both of his which made him shiver slightly,

"You shivered..." Milly asked puzzled,

"Yep, your leg did that" he said smiling,

he got his other hand and moved it towards her leg, he took hold of her thigh then pulled so she was sitting ontop of him. Milly's face was shocked when she was suddenly up right sitting on Matt,

"Now that is much better" Matt said smiling a cheeky smile,

Milly's face went bright red she let her hair fall over her face so he couldn't see it hopefully, Matt giggled then started sitting up properly Milly didn't know what to do she was falling back slightly as he sat up but Matt had wrapped his arms around her so she couldn't fall,

"Are you comfy now??" Milly said with a smile when Matt had sat up,

he smiled then nodded, Milly was still sitting on Matt but he was sitting up to with his arms wrapped around her back she moved her hands so they where on each side of his neck her face going redder by the minute,

"I can't be hurt when I have you" she whispered gazing into his eyes,

"I could hurt you, even if I'm in control of everything I could still hurt you or get you hurt" he said looking away from her gaze,

she moved his face back to look at her and sighed, she didn't want him to talk like that it hurt inside the fact that he wouldn't open out to her, she gently moved her face to his then gently touched his lips with hers. They kissed slowly almost like they didn't actually want to kiss, Matt's lips were tightly pulled across his teeth with Milly trying to loosen then a little but nothing was working so she pulled away,

"Ok so you don't want to kiss" she said looking down,

Matt pushed her closer to his chest then wrapped his arms around her so her head was laying on him, her hands dropped from his neck and layed by his sides Matt moved his face to her ear to kiss it once,

"I want you not hurt, I'm just scared I'm going to hurt you I'm not someone who's like this...to fall in love with someone that isn't who I am" he whispered with a whistle,

Milly didn't move she just sat there thinking, her hands moved from his sides to wrap around his waist weakly,

"Well then who are you??I haven't fallen in love with someone this quickly before it's like I've known you for years" she whispered back into his ear,

"I'll hurt you if I told you" he whispered back, there was an edge in his voice,

"It's hurting me not knowing" she whispered sadness ringing through her voice,

Matt sighed, he didn't want to hurt her but it seemed that either way it hurt her, he moved her so she was laying next to him and then moved down the bed to lay next to her,

"Go to sleep Milly everything will be fine in the morning" he whispered to her gently,

Milly looked at him seriously scared and worried that he was going to run away into the night and never come back, what would she do then?? her life revolved around him she couldn't lose him ever.