I'll Take You Out Though I'm Hardly Worth Your Time

I totally didn’t sleep at all. I just stared at the ceiling, thinking about had just happened. Why did I stop him from explaining? I should have allowed him so I can finally hear the truth. I guess I was too scared to know the truth. I’ve always been a coward. I don’t have strength to face Alex and what he had to say.

I decided that I finally had enough “rest” so I stood up and walked out the room. I hope Alex is sleeping so I’ll not have to see him. Of course, my hoping is not enough because as soon as I exit my room, I see Alex sitting on the couch. He looked up at me with an anxious face.

“Sandra, I—I really think I need to talk to you” he said weakly

Oh my god. What was he going to say? I nodded stiffly and sat across from him.

“I have to explain myself” he started and then looked straight to my eyes

I just look at him, still a little scared on what he had to say

“I hope you don’t freak out on me or stay away from me after I tell you this. I hope you listen to my side.” he mumbled

“What is it?” I asked nervously

“I—I really really like you Sandra” he stuttered

“You really caught my attention ever since I met you. You are just different from the others I dated. I am really attracted to you and that’s just not in a friendly way” he finished and looked at me under his lashes

I was surprised. I don’t know what to say. This is the truth already, what I’ve feared all along. He finally told me already. But how did I feel about him? I know that deep inside I wanted to scream “I like you too” but my brain was telling me, “no way. I don’t want to be like those girls”

“I—Alex, I don’t know what to say. Give me time to think about this” I muttered

His face lightened and all the nervousness disappeared

“You—you’re not mad?” he asked

“No, I am shocked. Why? You thought I was gonna get mad?” I ask

“Yes. I was afraid that you would tell me to stay away from you and that you would instantly end our friendship. I don’t want that to happen just because of me”

“I am glad that you told me how you really felt. That’ really brave of you” I smile at him

Honestly, I was really impressed on how he was able to tell me how he really felt. I didn’t have that much courage to do what he just did. Besides, I don’t want to get mad at him because I know in myself that I did feel something for him. I wouldn’t want to do something I will regret.

“I can’t believe that you took this lightly! I was so nervous” he laughed softly

“I know how hard it is for you to tell me how you feel. And, just so you know, this will definitely not ruin our friendship. I really want to keep our friendship”

“Thanks Sandra. That really relieved me” he stood up and then hugged me

I hugged back and patted his back.

“I just want to tell you that I am serious about liking you. You’re a girl that I am very willing to keep” he said as he pulled away

“I’ll think about it” I mutter

“I can wait” he smiled widely