The Pain I've Grown to Know

Four Days Later

Allie's P.O.V.

i've been in the hospital for a week now. yeah i'm still not happy but today i get to go home. the prick has been thinking about telling my mother the truth why he wasn't able to stay. she asked him a few times why hasn't he gotten gray dealing with me and amber.

are you ready to go back? edward asked me

not really i want to stay here a little though i told him

in the hospital? he asked confused

no in this state i told him

you can't stay i'll run back to forks with you on my back he threated.

"really?" i asked

"yeah but i have to do somethings when we go back" he said

"i'm not going to turn into a full one though right" i asked him

"that's not what i'm talking about" he told me

amber walked into the room with clothes for me to wear. she handed me my favorite avenged sevenfold shirt and jeans with my converse.

"are you ready to go home?" she asked me.

"kind of" i told her

"why isn't she ready to go home?" alice asked walking in

"because i have my life here" i said

"yeah but we're all in forks" she said

"yeah but this life's been apart of me for so long and it's easy for my to stay and get drunk so i can't feel the pain that i'm in now" i said

amber started laughing at me.

"only you" she said

"yeah and i'm really hungry" i said

"that's normal you" edward said

"yeah and i haven't drank anything in the past two months" i said

"that's a big shocker" amber said

"yeah and i got hide of those bottles before i did drink them and i have no idea what would happen though" i said

"i have a question" amber said

"what is it?" edward asked

"i'm not sure" alice said

"huh?" i asked

"well she was going to ask if their is any kids like you two. well half moratl and immortal. no one really knows but we can look into it" alice said

"great i thought we were unique" i said

"you are though" edward said

"no she's special" amber said

yeah when we were younger i had a shirt that was of ralph from the simpsons that she i'm special. yeah she would call me special ed and i get mad. so i just shot her the finger.

"aren't you nice today" my mother said walking into the room

"yeah and i'm walking out of this hell" i said

"how is this hell?" she asked me

"no good tv channels" i said

"only you" she said laughing

we all walked out of the room. someone brang me a wheelchair and i walked away from that person as soon as i saw that chair. i mean i can walk so why not walk out of this place.

we soon got into two different cars. the adults in one and us in the other. amber was driving.

"i want to listen to avenged" i said

"yeah i know" she said

"what i haven't gotten my ipod back yet" i said

"edward i thought i told you to give it to her" amber said

"don't worry i have it with me" he said

"can i have my ipod then" i said

he handed me my ipod. this didn't feel the same for me. i mean the whole cheating death thing again. i turned on my ipod and started listening to my ipod. i decided to listen to warmness of the soul. i haven't heard it for a while it seems but i loved that song.

we got back to the house before the adults. i guess they went to pick up the pills so i won't be in that much pain. i got out of the car and went inside.

"where are you going?" alice asked me

"to my bed" i said

"your tired?" amber asked in shock

"yeah" i said

i walked into my room and left my door unlocked. i took off my shoes and laid on my bed. this felt really good to be in my own bed. i was laying on my stomach now. i heard my door open.

"who's here?" i asked

"me" edward said

what's wrong? i asked him

nothing just wanted to check on you he said

why? i asked them

because i wanted too. your sleepy? he asked me

yeah i said

do you feel fine? he asked me

yeah. why should i feel sick? i asked him

no i'm just making sure though he said

ok well i'm going to take a nap then i said

ok well we're all leaving tomorrow and that includes you too he said

i already know i told him

i closed my eyes but i could still feel him next to me on the bed with me. i felt him watching me. this kind of made thinks a little harder for my to sleep good.