The Pain I've Grown to Know

One Month Later

Allie’s P.O.V.

So from last month to this month things have changed oh so very much. Edward has been all around Bella protecting her from Aro. Turns out Aro said if Bella wasn’t turned she’d die. I don’t get it I was welcomed on both La Push is side and the Cullen’s side. Since Edward has been a ass now I’ll been hanging with the wolfs. I’m not sure if that’s a great idea but whatever if he wants her then he can keep that bitch.

“Allie” Amber said breaking my thoughts

“What?” I asked her

“Are you okay?” she asked me

“Sure why wouldn’t I be?” I asked her

“Well you seem out of it since the whole Bella thing” she said

“Thanks for that bitches reminder” I mumbled

Amber laughed at what I said because I don’t think these wolfs heard it.

“So did you lose that leech for good?” Jacob asked me

“His name is Edward” I told him

“Yeah and yours is evil” Jared said joking Paul just gave him draggers I have no idea why
but Paul is a very hot wolf and I’d fuck him it’s just I don’t know he’s a slut.

“Oh I forgot I can’t mess with your imprint” Jared said to Paul

“Hold on imprint as in that shit they have?” I asked them pointing at Jacob and Amber.

This can’t be fucking happening! Why the man whore? I would have even gone out an actually dog before him I thought

“Allie keep your thought to yourself and that isn’t very nice about the dog comment” Amber
told me

I just took off running I had no idea where I was going but I know my speed was quick and there was no stopping me at this point. I mean who wanted to be with a whore? Not me that’s for sure he just likes sex even though I’m not complaining about that but still.

I ran and finally landed and my own bed and get on it. I locked all my windows and doors I seriously didn’t want to see anyone. I mean this whole month has been shitty then finding out that shit makes it even worse. I kind of wonder what Italy would hold for me if I was to
go? I mean Aro doesn’t seem that bad to me. I soon fell asleep.

Pound on my door woke me up. They know never wake me up so why the fuck are they waking me up.

“Who the fuck is it?” I asked annoyed

“Just open the door” I heard Paul answer

I opened the door and for the first time ever saw him with his shirt on. I guess I got used to looking at the abs and never really paid attention to how hot he is.

“What?” I asked him

“You can’t just run away like that” he told me walking into my room.

“I don’t answer to anyone so if I want to run I sure as hell am” I said

“This room has his scent in here” he told me

“Yeah he used to come by a lot before now that’s rare not my fault everyone wants to kill the
bitch” I said

“You really don’t like her do you?” he asked me

“Nope there’s just something about her” I said

“I guess I see your point since she broke Jacob’s heart before you half leeches came to town” he said

“Now I’m a blood thirsty bitch to you” I told him

“Yes but that wasn’t your fault it was whoever made you and your blood is almost as sweet smell as theirs but your sisters isn’t the same as you” he told me

“So I’ve been told” I said

“Can you read my thoughts too?” he asked me

“Yes if I wanted too” I told him

“Well have you?” he asked me

“Never found a reason to” I told him

“Well what would you want to know?” he asked me

“I don’t really have to ask you I can get go through your thought if I ever want to know
something. So how many girls have you slept with since you imprinted on me?” I asked him

“Shouldn’t you know that answer?” he asked me

“Yes but do you know how many?” I asked him

“Five” he answered

“Eight” I told him

“How do you know these things?” he asked me

“Because they are always in the back of your mind even the times you want to forget” I told
him

“Can everyone do that?” he asked me

“Just me and Amber” I told him

“Why are you different from the rest?” he asked me

“Because us being half human means we can live a normal life but at times we need blood in which mine comes more than Amber’s she’s able to control herself more while I like
killing animals just to feed and it will last a while” I told him

“What kind do you drink?” he asked me

“Any as long as they are alive and have blood in them. I mean I am human for the most part
but I’ve always been this” I told him

“Would you ever choose to be whole?” he asked me

“After a certain time I will stay this way and won’t die” I told him

“So your kind of frozen this way?” he asked me

“I guess I’m not even sure” I said

“Who does know?” he asked me

“Probably the Cullen’s” I said

“I don’t want you near them” he said

“Trust me I don’t either” I said

“Good” he said

“That’s almost demanding you know” I told him

“Well if you keep away from them then it’s good” he said

“Well I’m guessing you know our dad is a doctor too and also like them?” I asked him

“Does he come here?” he asked me

“Yes” I said honestly

“I can’t believe Jacob even lets him near here” he said

“Well that’s not his choice it’s our mothers” I said

“Just her’s?” he asked

“Me and him didn’t get along very well” I said

“What happened?” he asked me

“Let’s just say if I wasn’t like him I’d be dead and doctor Cullen helped me live” I said

“So when do you want to go out?” he asked me

“I’m not sure” I told him

“Why not?” he asked

“Because I’m still with Edward until I find out otherwise I’ll let you know tomorrow since we
go to school then” I said

“You don’t have my number” he said

“Yes I do it’s in your mind” I told him

“You need to not do that” he said frustrated

“Yeah I know but you’ll get used to it” I told him

Next Day

I got dressed and we went to school. No surprise there Bella was with Edward. This shit really pisses me off it’s like I can’t even have a break

We need to talk I thought and he looked at me

I blocked my thought so he wouldn’t know what was going through my head. I had to Amber
knew but wasn’t going to hint that out. I walked to class he walked in right before the bell went off.

He wrote on a piece of paper and sent it to me.

What do you want to talk about?

Are we together or not?

Yes why would you think otherwise?

Because it doesn’t feel like a relationship when someone is never around the person and it’s all about that person’s ex. Maybe us being together was a bad idea

He looked at what I said and didn’t look at me but all his thought we’re pretty clear he has to protect Bella and that is what cost him to lose my respect and me in general. Maybe a note wasn’t the best idea but I had to do what was best.

“Are you sure that is what you want?” he asked me as the class left

I saw pain in his eyes but he doesn’t know how much pain I’ve seen in this past month and I knew Bella wanted him back more than anything and at this rate she got her way because she wanted to play victim when she just wants to be like use.

“Yes we don’t belong together” I said looking away from him

I walked away blocking all my thoughts. I just need to let Paul know and we can go out now.

“Allie” Alice told me

“Hi Alice” I told her

“So you know I can’t see what your future is?” she told me

“Yes I’m aware” I told her

“And you choose to leave Edward” she told me

“Yes I knew Bella wanted him back and she isn’t going to have me in the way because I
need to be alone” I told her

“Like you found out Paul was your imprint?” she told me

“Yes” I told her

“That explains why Edward seemed a little mad since you do smell kind of like them” she said

“If he wasn’t with Bella so much then I wouldn’t smell this way” I snapped

“I know you don’t trust her but I can’t see why just yet” she told me

“You will later but I cannot say” I told her

“So you’re going to give Paul a try?” she asked me

“That’s an idea I never thought I’d have” I said

“He’s makes you happy” she told me

“I think so” I told her

“You deserve to be happy after so much of sadness” she told me with a smile

“I know everyone does and this might be my time” I told her

I sent Paul a text saying I’d go out with him and I was no longer with Edward. From the text he sent back he was happy from it and we’re going out tomorrow night. Maybe this is what the end for me was supposed to look like.