The Pain I've Grown to Know

Edward's P.O.V.

"why did you kill them?" i asked allie.

don't lose you temper amber thought.

asshole allie thought.

"yeah but look at the way your acting" i told her

"so?" she said

"would you both act your ages" amber told us.

"fuck no i'm not going to act my age right now" allie said

"you never act your age" i told her

"yeah that's why i've been in your thoughts for a month" allie said.

"so" i told her

"alice should of came too" amber said

"it's not safe for him here" allie said

"why not?" i asked her

"no much sun plus i'm not hiding you from the light plus we have friends near our place they'll know something is up if i hide you from the light" allie said

"i didn't think of that" amber said

i'm sorry i thought.

for what? allie asked

they way i was acting i thought her

why did you come? she asked me again

i had to see you i told her

why? you have a girlfriend having problems she asked me

no i went crazying knowing you we're gone and i just had to see you i told her.

we soon arrived at a house. i guess it was theirs. amber basically ran inside the house and left me and allie outside.

"dam that bitch is happy" allie said.

her phone went off. i saw the ID was someone named emily. i wonder who that was.

"hey emily... i can't make it tonight... amber came into town and i didn't expect that... yeah but i'll be there tomorrow for sure... yeah i'll talk to you later... bye emily" she said

"who's emily?" i asked her

"michael's sister" allie said and walked into the house.

michael's sister? i didn't know he had a sister.

"what's wrong edward?" amber asked me.

"i didn't know michael had a sister" i said

"yeah and she loves allie. she didn't want her to leave after michael died" amber said

"so when allie decided to come back here it's just opening old wounds from then though" i told her

"yeah but i guess that's the ways she's going to close her new ones" amber said

"she knew about the choice i had to make?" i asked amber

"yeah she knew everything" she told me

"when she found out who i choose she wanted to leave?" i asked amber

"yeah but she just didn't want to go threw more pain that what she already has. well since everything happened here" she told me.

yeah but it just followed me hereallie said

why don't you come down and talk to me? i asked her

i don't want to talk she told me.

well i'm going to you then i said and went upstairs.

i found allie's room. it wasn't that much different from her room in forks. i guess that's what she likes.

"why did i have to come up instead of you go downstairs?" i asked her

"because i wanted to lay down not sit up" she told me.

i got on the bed with her. she didn't move from her spot she was laying at. she looked like she was barely breathing but i could still hear her heart beating.

"what's wrong?" she asked me

"nothing i just miss watching you" i told her

"your lying" she told me

"how do you know that?" i asked her

"because i know your mind better than you do" she said

i moved closer to her. our lips almost met before she pulled away ad looked at me. i knew i wanted to see if this felt right. i knew she probly felt the same way as me.

"what about your girlfriend?" she asked me.

i didn't think about bella before i wanted to kiss her. i still want to kiss her.

"i wasn't thinking about her" i told allie.

"i know but i'm not that wrong of a person" she told me

"i know but i need to see if this is right. i mean i have many strong feeling for you and i know you feel the same way as me" i told her

before i knew it our hands met. her hand felt almost the same as mine. well cold wise. this time our lips met. we both didn't want to break apart from this kiss.