The Forbidden Baby

I had moved in my new place and everything was alright.
The baby's room I wouldn't both with and Maybell was sleeping with me.
I got a job at this place like a CVS it's called "Shortie Shop".
Many people thought it was a hoagie shop until they got in.
This hippie lady that lived a floor under me made a deal with me about watching Maybell.
She watch my kid I watch hers.
It was a nice little deal.
Rivet said that after a few days of being missing everyone started to ask around for me.
My father came to her and said that Dylan was looking for me too.
Phillip found her too when she went into the pizza place one day.
She said Bessie had told him that I had went away too.
The first one to go to her though was Marc.
She said she was very strong and didn't break at all.
She was a good friend.
She said I owed her though.
I told her I would try to do something for her birthday and I planned to keep it.
One thing I had to do right after I had everything moved in was dye my hair dark brown.
And lord was that a hassle.
A big pregnant lady trying to dye her own hair in a tiny bathroom.
If anyone saw it they would find it amusing.
The hair color made me feel like I was actually Maybell's mother.
It was nice but weird.
As I was dying my hair I remembered that Marc said that he liked the color of my hair.
I had to hold back a few tears remembering our goodbye too.
I had to move on.
I had to.
Or else I would fall right back to him.
Let him act like he could take care of me.
Act like he's ready to be a dad.
Act like he still is in love with me.
When he isn't, I know he isn't.
I don't get why he must lie to himself and pretend that he could love someone like me.
Someone so disheveled and messed up from her past.
He just can't.
I don't think he even loved me in the beginning.