The Adventure

Back to present day, we're in our junior year. I feel like there is a time bomb ready to go off inside of me if I don't do something. But what is there to do? Not a lot. I feel that if nothing happens before senior year, I'll probably kill myself. Ok, maybe not kill myself, but I honestly KNOW that there is no one else out there for me. It feels like 90% of my day is focused on thinking about him and the other 10% is the distraction of shiny objects. Yes, I have been thinking about him for the past 3 years. 3 and a half, actually. Why? I have no idea why, I can't help it. And my whole being wants to know that it's possible for him to like me back again and we'll live happily ever after. But I feel like he has moved on and I missed my chance...