Unnoticed tension
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"I love you."
"Huh?" the spoon that Gerard had been using to eat ice cream hung loosely from his mouth as he stared.
"You heard me." I said quietly. He laughed slightly - though I couldn't tell if it was AT me.
"You're just joking around to get a reaction. Did Mikey put you up to this?"
"No. I'm not fucking joking around." I said seriously, my voice nearly cracking. His smile fell, and I could see he was trying to form a coherent sentence.
"I-I...uh. I don't know what to say." he tried, sitting down at the kitchen table opposite me.
A sad smile tugged at the corners of my mouth, and for a split second I could see Gerard's suspicion that I was lying come and pass. I stared down at my shoes, just wanting to run away. Why had I told him? I knew he had a girlfriend. Besides, I'm a loser, and nobody like him would ever want me.
"I'm sorry." he said as softly as he could, looking down to the table. My smile widened, and I stared off out the window.
"Huh?" the spoon that Gerard had been using to eat ice cream hung loosely from his mouth as he stared.
"You heard me." I said quietly. He laughed slightly - though I couldn't tell if it was AT me.
"You're just joking around to get a reaction. Did Mikey put you up to this?"
"No. I'm not fucking joking around." I said seriously, my voice nearly cracking. His smile fell, and I could see he was trying to form a coherent sentence.
"I-I...uh. I don't know what to say." he tried, sitting down at the kitchen table opposite me.
A sad smile tugged at the corners of my mouth, and for a split second I could see Gerard's suspicion that I was lying come and pass. I stared down at my shoes, just wanting to run away. Why had I told him? I knew he had a girlfriend. Besides, I'm a loser, and nobody like him would ever want me.
"I'm sorry." he said as softly as he could, looking down to the table. My smile widened, and I stared off out the window.
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Yeeahh, is it confusing enough?? ;]