The Cheater's Ex-Girlfriend

"Just leave me alone" I shouted to Alex, running away from him,

"Rae I love you and only you" he shouted back as he tried to keep up,

"No you don't, you wouldn't have cheated on me if you loved me" I picked up the pase trying to get rid of him,

"Rae please don't do this to me, please" he pleaded, it sounded like he was going to burst into tears,

I stopped running just before the busy motorway would have taken hold of me, I swivled around to face him and sighed, he had slowed down and was now walking towards me slowly. As he finally got to me he wrapped his arms around me tightly I knew I wouldn't be able to get away now,

"I love you Rae" he whispered in my ear,

"And I love you too Alex" I whispered back, feeling such a fool to have given up so quickly.

When I got home my mum was luckyly out, she has always wanted me to leave and never come back, it made me feel like...well crap basically. I slowly walked into my room and layed across my bed, Alex was so annoying sometimes and I couldn't stop myself from loving him. As my eye lids shut slowly the image of him cheating came back through my head,

'We were at Mykie's party, everyone was having fun and was dancing around, then there was me...sitting in a corner feeling so alone and helpless.

"Alex...where could you be??" I asked quietly to the noisey room,

that's when I saw him, he was holding hands with the high school tart Kelsey, she had one hell of a reputation on making guys fall for her, getting that one thing that all the tarts want from them and then dumping them and breaking their hearts. I stood up slowly and walked to the front door of Mykie's big house,

"I can't believe you Alex" I whispered out loud, no one could hear me,

I watched as Kelsey moved closer to him and then to me complete shock she kissed him on the lips, and he didn't pull away!!. Right there and then I wanted to die, everything me and Alex had been through and he does this, I ran straight for the door making him see me finally leaving, that's when he pulled away and started pushing past people to get to me but I was already out of the door running far away from the house and him.

"Rae I know your in there, come let me in??" Alex's voice woke me from the memory,

I sighed deeply then got off my bed and walked to my bedroom window, I slowly heeved it open to see Alex's smiling face,

"Hey" I said not bothered about him being here,

"Oh I can go if you want me too, I just came to give you something" he said as he climbed into my room,

"No...just stay" I said not even looking at him now,

I slumbed onto my bed and huddled up to my pillows, Alex walked slowly to my bed and sat on the other end,

"Rae I'm really sorry for what I did...I didn't know she was kissing me until I saw you run to Mykie's door...yes I know that doesn't help anything but I want to show you how really sorry I am..." he moved closer to me and my stomach turned,

"No that doesn't help Alex, I love you so much and when I saw you not pulling away from her I broke into two, I can't believe after everything we've been through you would let the high school tart kiss you" I turned my head so I couldn't see his hurt face,

"I love you too Rae, I really really do" he was right next to me now,

his long arm wrapped around me, pulling me closer to him, the warmth of his body making me feel save again like it always did. That's when it changed, next thing I knew Alex was on my floor on one knee...he wasn't serious right??,

"Rae Smith...will you marry me??" he asked the question so nervously,

This is when I had to think, 'If I say yes who knows what I'll be getting myself into, Kelsey will be all over him even more if I say no though...ugh why did everything have to be so hard to choose??'. I looked into his eyes and then sighed, this was the most stupidest thing I've done in my whole life,

"Yes I will" I said trying to force a smile but it came up as a grimance,

he jumped up onto his feet and lept on me, sqweezing me tightly,

"I love you, I love you, I love you" he shouted in my ear,

"Yeah ok, calm down with the shouting in my ear please" I said pushing him off me so he was sitting by my side,

"Sorry..." he looked to the floor upset,

"Oh never mind" I said sighing again,

yes I loved him with all my heart, but most of the time it felt like he just wanted to use me to get to someone else, I didn't have any friends so I don't know who it would be,

"Oh um...yeah, your ring..." he broke me off my thinking again, "I have got it here but it's not a real metal one, I'm saving up all my money to get you it though I promise Rae"

he took hold of my left hand and sqweezed a little plastic ring, the words 'I love you' where printed on the top of it,

"I promise I will Rae, I really do promise" he looked upset at my blank face,

"It's alright Alex, you keep your savings, you don't get enough as it is" I said with a small smile,

he smiled back and then lent in towards me, his warm breath over flowed my face as he moved even closer,

"Do you like it??" he whispered, his eyes looked like crystals,

I quickly looked down at my left hand, the ring was a pretty shade of pink and purple, and it had a small spiral line going through the middle that was silver,

"Yes, I do" I whispered back, while looking back up at him,

he smiled again and then gently pressed his lips onto mine, this is when I got drowned by him kissing me...but no, this time he was being gently. I slowly moved one of my arms around his neck wanting him more then ever as the sight of him kissing Kelsey came shooting back in my head, he kept to the same speed in the kiss which was not like him but made me feel more safer. That's when I got a shock, I could feel one of his hands on my knee...working it's way up towards my...crutch. I quickly pulled away and moved away from him,

"What did I do??" he asked confused,

"You know I'm not ready for that" I said as I pulled my legs to my chest, "I won't be ready for that in a long time"

he looked to the floor again, a tear almost fell from his eye before he wiped it away and stood up,

"Where are you going now?? you can stay here..." I said confused, as he walked to the window,

"You don't want me here" his voice was filled with sadness,

I sighed inside then jumped off my bed, rushing to him and pulling him away from the window and into a hug,

"You are such a silly billy even if your name is Alex, of course I want you here and one day me and you will do 'that' but only when we are both ready" I said to him,

he wrapped his arms around me and moved his face close to my ear,

"You promise?? when we are both ready we will at least try to do 'that'" he whispered,

I was so signing my life away, I hope if I have kids they won't be as stupid as me,

"I promise that when we are both ready and I do mean both of us, then we will try to do 'that'" I whispered as I looked up at his face,

his smile was soft and calm, 'Yep you really have signed your life away'. I moved back towards my bed and layed down, he would always come round here at night and I would fall asleep in his arms. We got into the places we would normally be in and then just layed there in the silent of my room,

"Rae..." I heard Alex whisper,

"Alex..." I whispered back, fighting my eyes to stay open,

"I love you" he whispered back, his voice getting fluffier from the sleep I was about to be ungulfed in,

"And I love you too..." I said in almost a whisper of a whisper before I closed my eyes and fell into a deep and thankfully dreamless sleep.