For Ever And Always
Kiss
I was crying on the floor, feeling pity for myself. Wanting to end it all but knowing I was not brave enough to do it.
Mikey came into my room and saw the fucking disaster I was. He came close to me, sat down and hugged me.
-"What's wrong Gee?" he asked
I broke down crying, he hugged me tighter and I cried even more, his presence was something so sweet and so painful at the same time. I needed to tell him that I loved him, but II was scared shitless to tell him.
I took a deep breath, grew some balls and made a decision: I will tell him, I will tell him right now. He will be the reason for everything: if he said yes, I will turn into the happiest man ever and I would never think about drugs, alcohol or suicide again. If he said no... well, I will have enough reasons to die for...
-"Mikey... I ... I need... to tell you something..." I muttered.
He nodded and looked at me expectantly.
I froze inside myself, not knowing what to say. I wanted to kiss him, but I knew that would scare him away. I thought and re-thought everithing the right way to do it, I was very scared to fuck all up.
-"What is it Gee?" he asked.
-"I... oh... please don't hate me" I muttered.
Then I kissed him. I pushed my lips gently into his, it was the sweetest kiss ever. I pulled back as quickly as I could, I didn't gave him time to react to my kiss.
He opened his mouth as to say something, but I put my index finger pressed to his lips, asking for silence.
-"Please don't talk, let me explain you" I took a deep breath "Ever since I was 15 I had some feelings for you that brothers don't are supposed to have for each other. At first I thought it was just a phase and that it would just go away in time, but it didn't. Then I realized I was in-loved with you. I have been loving you in secret for five years. I know that it is not right and that you probably don't feel the same way, but I needed to tell you... Please think about it..."
Mikey looked at me in astonishment.
_"I..." He muttered, then he changed his mind and walked away from me and left me alone with my thoughts.
Mikey came into my room and saw the fucking disaster I was. He came close to me, sat down and hugged me.
-"What's wrong Gee?" he asked
I broke down crying, he hugged me tighter and I cried even more, his presence was something so sweet and so painful at the same time. I needed to tell him that I loved him, but II was scared shitless to tell him.
I took a deep breath, grew some balls and made a decision: I will tell him, I will tell him right now. He will be the reason for everything: if he said yes, I will turn into the happiest man ever and I would never think about drugs, alcohol or suicide again. If he said no... well, I will have enough reasons to die for...
-"Mikey... I ... I need... to tell you something..." I muttered.
He nodded and looked at me expectantly.
I froze inside myself, not knowing what to say. I wanted to kiss him, but I knew that would scare him away. I thought and re-thought everithing the right way to do it, I was very scared to fuck all up.
-"What is it Gee?" he asked.
-"I... oh... please don't hate me" I muttered.
Then I kissed him. I pushed my lips gently into his, it was the sweetest kiss ever. I pulled back as quickly as I could, I didn't gave him time to react to my kiss.
He opened his mouth as to say something, but I put my index finger pressed to his lips, asking for silence.
-"Please don't talk, let me explain you" I took a deep breath "Ever since I was 15 I had some feelings for you that brothers don't are supposed to have for each other. At first I thought it was just a phase and that it would just go away in time, but it didn't. Then I realized I was in-loved with you. I have been loving you in secret for five years. I know that it is not right and that you probably don't feel the same way, but I needed to tell you... Please think about it..."
Mikey looked at me in astonishment.
_"I..." He muttered, then he changed his mind and walked away from me and left me alone with my thoughts.
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