I Nick Jonas Hate the Bass Player

Looking at my diary from the past couple months have been very…bipolar. I go from having 3 happy sentences like:

"David gave me flowers today and we spent time out on the boat. He was so adorable that I'd never trade him for anything"

Then I'd spend pages upon pages…complaining…no more like bitching about Nick. I won't bore you with the….57 pages I wrote his name at least once on. I sit back and realize I was really stupid about liking people…and I still am. I looked over and saw Ryan sleeping on the couch. She hasn't slept in her bunk next to me in a month. I think we're really over because she won't even look at me. I know I broke the girl code but I shouldn't be isolated because someone wants to know about my problems. AHHH! I just threw my diary in my bunk and put my glasses on. I pulled my hair back into a pony tail and grabbed more homework. I noticed that if I keep ahead I can't slip right?

"Hey" Nick said sitting down next to me and kissing me

He never let go causing me to let my books fall to the ground. He laid me down on the couch and hovered over me.

"So, I got you something." He said
"Aww, you shouldn't have." I said

He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a gold chain and a 4-leaf clover charm.

"Oh, I love it." I said
"I know you've been having a lot of issues lately and I wanted to give you luck and know I always have your back." He said
"It's so pretty." I said
"I know but just don't forget…I love you." He said
"I love you too and I'll never forget" I said
"Good" Nick said

He leaned in and kissed me as he rubbed my cheek.

"ARE YOU KIDDING ME? YOU SERIOUSLY ARE GOING TO BE WITH NICK AND STILL TRADE ME?" Ryan yelled passing by
"Remember we're not friends anymore. So why does it matter?" I asked
"Laura, you're right you were my best friend, but I don't want to see you hurt. You know what, whatever, I'm not going to be here when he hurts you. I've been there but since you don't tell me anything anymore it's over." She said walking away

A tear fell down my face and I just looked down at the floor. I felt the necklace placed around my neck. Nick just kissed my collarbone and held me. I knew he felt guilty but I wanted everyone to get along. Plus, I was still with David. I know, I know, I know what you're saying but I still love him. How do you just stop loving someone?
"Laura, look at me." Nick said

He placed his fingers on my chin and looked me in the eyes.

"Look, I feel guilty as hell about this and I don't know what I'm going to do but the first thing you need to do is stop your crying. She is your best friend and I should never get between you two." He said
"No, Nick. She has to understand that you're partially my life and if she's going to be friends with me then she has to deal with both of us." I said

The bus stopped and I looked over to Betsy and she smiled.

"Alright, I need to stretch my legs so if you all want you can stop and get something to drink at the gas station. Be back in 15 minutes." She said over the intercom

"Betsy you're amazing. I need my bucks!" he said running out the bus
"What's bucks?" she asked me
"Starbucks. It's his new nickname for it." I said
"Got it. Girl, you better get out here. You need fresh air." She said
"We should go walk around." Nick said

I got up and walked off the bus in my slippers. Nick was right behind me in sweatpants and "man slippers". Trust me I'll get a mean look if I don't call them that. As I waited for Nick he smiled once he saw me. We walked toward the gas station and Nick grabbed my hand. I held onto it tight to make sure that he wouldn't let go.

"I'm right here!" he said
"I know" I said smiling and spinning around

Nick caught me in his arms and pulled me into him. We both giggled and smiled. I could feel his breath on my cheek and it sent shivers down my spine. We were in the middle of a parking lot when it started to pour down raining. I spun around in Nick's grip and looked at him straight in the eyes.

"Have you ever been kissed in the rain?" he asked
"No" I said smiling

He lowered his hood and I watched as his hair fall from the rain. There he reached over at my hood and lowered it. I pulled my hair out of my rubber band and shook my hair out. Nick slammed me into him and I smiled into the kiss as the water fell down us.

"I'm sorry for everything I've done!" Nick yelled over the rain
"I'm sorry for everything also!" I yelled
"Kiss ME!" he yelled

I jumped on him and kissed him and fell onto the ground and I screamed.
"Sorry" I said hovering over top of him
"It's ok" he said laughing

He ended up giving me a piggy back ride to the gas station. He let me make a milkshake…it was cute.

"What do you want?" I asked looking at the milkshake machine
"You, to myself" he said

I looked over at him. My eyes are huge and he is being dead serious, I didn't know what to say.

"Um, how about Vanilla. You always have liked Vanilla." I said nervous
"Laura, look at me" he said pulling my arm back
"I love you and I want you all to myself…but I want you to know I won't always be there waiting." He said

That made me feel so guilty about everything. This whole thing is my fault! I was the idiot that started liking Nick Jonas…now I cannot stop wanting to be with him.

I kept staring at my milkshake and tapping it against the counter. I wanted to be with him so bad but I didn't want to hurt David.

"Laura, you say nothing after that?" he asked
"No, I'm about to do something." I said pulling my phone out
"What are you doing?" he asked

I picked up the phone and dialed David. I know it's bad the way I'm doing this but I feel it's right. Then I got a voicemail…great.

"Hey David it's Laura. I just wanted to talk to you so call me back." I said

No I love you. No miss you. A massive clue.

"Laura, are you going to break up with him over the phone?" he asked
"Yeah, it's the only way. It's not like he's a mile down the road." I said
"Well, ok…I guess." He said

The phone started ringing but it was my phone…I saw it was David.

"Hey, what's up?" I asked looking at Nick straight in the eye
"Oh nothing. I'm just looking at my girlfriend making out in a bathroom with Nick Jonas on the cover of People." He said

My eyes got wide and a tear fell down my face. I never wanted to be known as a "slut" or a "whore" more less "the cheater".
"Oh really?" I asked
"Yeah, I'm pissed." He said
"Look David…" I started
"I know you love him." He said
"Excuse me?" I asked
"I know you love him Laura. I saw the way you all fought and yelled. To be honest I was expecting this but I didn't know it would be this way." He said
"David, I'm sorry. I'm not a cheater, I'm really not and I don't know what I got myself into." I said

Nick hugged me into his chest as I talked to David and cried.

"Yeah, I don’t think you understand either. I just bought you a diamond necklace…guess it was for nothing." He said even madder

That made me cry more. My career may be over, the band will look bad and god help me when my mom finds out.

"Look, I'm sorry. David I really do love you." I said
"Sure. Laura, I'll save your rep and tell people we just didn't work out…but don't ever call me again." He said hanging up

I closed my phone and cried into Nick's chest. I felt like a total bitch crying about another guy in a guy I love arms.

"Hey, let's pay for the milkshakes." Nick said walking with me still in his chest.

I never did leave his chest. My hood was up and I kept hold of him as he kept his left arm around me.

"Hey, you're Nick…" I heard the cashier say

Nick must have done something to keep her quiet because she got quiet suddenly and gave him his change. We walked towards the door and we got back on the bus. Betsy was still not back so I didn't have to face her. I let go of Nick once we were in the lounge area he shut the door and sat in front of me staring me in the eyes. I looked into them and saw care, love, concern and most of all a want. I saw that he wanted me to stop crying, I saw he wanted me in his arms and I know he mainly wanted me to look at him and tell him I love him.

"Laura come here." He said pulling me into his arms.

I laid there and I laid my head on his heartbeat. My hand was on his chest just to make sure he's really like this….loving me that is.

"Look, I knew this was going to happen eventually and I want you to know that I'm here…even if I'm loving what we're doing right now." He said smiling

That made me laugh and it helped.

"That's what I need right now Nick. Thanks and I'm glad were cuddling…I need a cuddle buddy." I said smiling

Nick kissed my head and just handed me my milkshake.

"Moo! Moo! Your milkshake is talking to you." He said smiling
"What are they saying?" I asked smiling and wiping tears
"They're saying, Nick is here for you and the milkshake will make you feel better." He said
"Well the cows are right." I said smiling and sipping my milkshake as I stared at Nick
"You have beautiful eyes." Nick said
"Thanks." I said smiling
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"Laura, Sam and Hailey here doing a web cast update for all you Nowhere Nothing fans out there." I said
"Yeah, we’ve got BIG news. After this tour we're going into the tour and starting our album. How cool is that?" Sam said
"You know what that means?" Hailey said
"NOWHERE NOTHING MANIA!" we yelled together
"Thanks for all the fan emails and letters! We're trying our hardest to respond to all of them but with school and the tour we have little free time." Sam said
"So keep writing to us and we'll get back to you." I said
"Alright so we have had some questions we wanted to answer for you all." Hailey said
"The first one is for Laura" Sam said
"Is it true that you and David Archuleta broke up and is it also true you're dating Nick Jonas?" Hailey said
"To be honest, yes David Archuleta and I broke up. We were away all the time and you know being away from someone can change your feelings for someone but as for Nick Jonas, no I'm still single." I said
"Ok this is for Sam, Is it true you're dating Joe Jonas?" I asked
"No, we were at one point but we broke up just recently." She said

This was true…sadly. Joe broke up with her a week after my David thing. He is being stupid right now.

"Well Hailey, I have a question for you." I said smiling
"Ok, what is it?" I asked
"Is it true that…you and Zac Efron are dating?" I asked questioning if it's true
"Yes!" she said
"WHAT?" Sam and I said
"Yeah, sorry" she said
"Well you guys found out when we found out so we're going to continue tomorrow." Sam said
"Yep, see you guys tomorrow!" I said

I turned off the camera and looked at Hailey.

"ARE YOU SERIOUS? OH MY GOSH HE IS ADORABLE!" I said smiling huge
"Yeah, well I got to know him. Plus, he's ready to move on since Vanessa." Hailey said
"AWESOME!" Sam and I high-fived her into hers

"Hey Laura?" Nick called
"Coming" I said getting up and walking to the lounge where he was

"What's up babe?" I asked as I was standing next to him as he stood in front of the mirror

He shut the door and he pulled me close. No one knows about us really because we have been on the road. No one has seen the magazines and we're hoping that I dies down so we can go back to being somewhat normal.

"Hey, how are you today?" he asked smiling and holding me
"I'm better now." I said smiling
"Which tie looks better?" he asked
"The purple one" I said smiling
"I knew that, since it is your favorite color." He said finishing tying it.
"I love you" I whispered biting his ear
"Seriously, you're going to kill me with that." He said kissing my neck
"No! Not fair! That' feels good." I said closing my eyes
"See, now you know how I feel." He said

We looked into each others eyes and he looked at me.

"So you look beautiful." He said smiling

I was wearing a yellow dress with a white and yellow polka dot belt.

"Thanks." I said smiling
"I love you" he said smiling
"I love you too" I said
"Time to enter the Venue!" Kevin yelled

That was the first show in a long time that I felt like I was myself again