Going Onto Fourteen

I meet this girl at my bands show.
Or one of them at least.

And well.
I wanted to get in contact with her.
ASAP!

So two days passed.
And I got her myspace.
Then requested.
And waited days for her to approve.
When she does that.
I got her screen name.
And we talked for hours.
Each day we could.
The first moment i saw her.
We like.
Looked into each others eyes, like there was something..

So we started hanging out.
It was great.
I made more friends.
Made a new one, that was her good friend.
And her friend that's my new friend lives like 5 minutes away from me.
So we hangout and talk sometimes.
Talk more than hangout.
But ja.
So we hung out about 7 times.
She came over my house a lot.
Only when other people were over.
I remember hanging out with her at the park
near my house.
It was just great fun.
That night she was drunk at a party, and texted me
saying, why didn't we hook up today, Jackie says we should have and so do I =>"
I thought hooking up meant going out.

And...well the 4th time she was over.
She was just different....
I knew something was wrong.
And i would tell my friend.
and she kept saying don't worry.
I go "Maybe she is interested in her ex"
and she goes. "no don't worry".
Then...that night we were hanging out.
I put my arm around her.
And she stiffed me.
She didn't even budge.

We talked online, like nothing happened.
I then realized. I always heard the things she did
with other guys.
And she's in the grade above me.

10th now.

The point is..

She never liked me for who I am or anything.
She just wanted to hook up.
All she wanted...was to just swap spit.
And I haven't talked to her since that night.

Then again.
I haven't spoken to her since the 12th.
So like they say.
If something you lost, that you really loved, let it go.
If it's really yours, it will come back.