I'm Melting In Your Eyes

Frank still lived with me. I ignored him though he’s not worth my time anymore. I would work as much as possible. The funny thing now is that now that me and Frank are over he’s around me as much as he can be. He’s like watching over me to make sure I’m safe or something which is sweet but I cant have him doing that anymore. One night I was bored and Frank came home and sat next to me. I ignored him until he grabbed my face and made me listen to him.

“Nat I know what I did was wrong. But you can’t stay mad at me forever”
“Yes I can and why don’t you go fuck some other girl” I said
“I don’t want any other girls I only want you” he said
“Well you cant have me so go find someone else” I said
“Starr wants me” he said
“Then why don’t you go to her” I said
“Cause I promised you I wouldn’t” he said
“So” I said
“I also made you a promise that I would never leave you” he said
“Well promises get broken” I said and stood up
“Nat don’t do this you know I love you” he said
“I don’t know if I can love you again after you fucked…Gerard and I still can’t believe jennies ok with it” I said
“She’s just weird like that but babe you should know that was the first time ever” he said
“Frank I want you out of this house” I said
“What no you don’t you like to see me” he said
“No get out of this house. I cant look at you anymore with out my heart breaking” I said and walked upstairs. I laid on my bed and cried. Frank was right I liked to see him. But it did break my heart every time I saw him. There was a knock at my door.

“Go away” I said
“I’m not leaving” Frank said
“Fine then I will” I said and got up and walked out the door. I went to Chibu’s house.

“Nat stop torturing yourself you know you want him” she said
“I don’t think I can trust him again” I said
“Just give him another chance” she said
“I don’t know” I said maybe I should but I don’t want to get hurt again I’ve had to much shit going on in my life that has messed me up. Like my dad dieing and my mom trying to kill me and her dieing me getting into depression and doing drugs. Cheating on Frank with Mikey. And running away to Europe and now breaking up with Frank for cheating on me with Gerard. I swear every time I say it it gets funnier. I know I was freaking out about it but Jenni was right that would be kinda hot. No no that’s wrong he cheated on me I hate Frank. But I love his smile well the smirk he does. No I hate it and I love the way he looks at me when I say something stupid but he doesn’t make me feel stupid. I love how he acts like a kid when were together. Shit I think I’m still in love with him.

“Chibu I’m gonna go back home I need to talk to Frank” I said
“Ok you go get your man” she said and I ran out of her house and back to mine and Franks. When I got there there was a note.

Nat,
I’ll be back to get my things tomorrow night. I know you wont ever love me again. So I’m doing you a favor and getting out of your life. I’ll be around but maybe you wont see me anymore. I’ll always love you.
Love,
Frank

Shit he’s moving out. No I need him to stay here. I’ll hid his things so he cant leave. Yea that’s a good Idea that’s what I’ll do. So I ran around the house and grabbed some of his things that he loved and locked them in a closet and went to bed I woke up the next morning and was really happy. I cleaned the house all day and then it was dark time. And around 8pm Frank walked in.

“Frank” I said happily
“Don’t worry I’m getting my things and leaving” he said and walked up to his room and screamed
“Nat where the hell is my shit”
“I don’t know” I said with a smile on my face and he ran down and looked at me
“Tell me where the hell you put it” he said getting in my face
“I don’t know where it is” I said trying to hid my smile
“God damnet Nat you want me out and now you wont give me my things your fucked up” he said and walked away
“Frank wait” I said and he turned around
“What”
“I know where it is….but I’m not giving you your things till we talk” I said
“We talked you want me out and I’m actually doing what you want and leaving so give me my things” he said getting close to me. I looked down and pushed back the tears that were forcing to come. Maybe he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I looked back at him.
“Nat don’t cry this is what you wanted” Frank said stepping a bit closer to me.
“You don’t know that Frank” I said
“You yelled at me yesterday to get out I think its what you want” he said
“NO ITS NOT FRANK WHAT I WANT IS YOU” I screamed and now I was crying
“Nat you don’t want me you hate me you ignored me for a week and a half and then when we do talk you tell me to get out I know you don’t trust me anymore and I’ll try and……” I cut him off by putting my lips on his and when I pulled apart I said
“Now Frank does that seem like I don’t love you anymore”
“No but I lost your trust” he said
“You can get that back but it will take a while” I said kissing him again
“Ok so where’s my stuff” he asked
“In the closet” I said pointing to the closet behind him
“Ok thanks” he said and walked over to it
“Your not leaving are you” I asked
“Do you really want me here” he asked
“Yea Frank I need you here I love you so much” I said
“Then if you really want me here than I will stay” he said and I unlocked the closet and he took his things back to his room.

(since it was a 2 bedroom apartment he had is own room when they broke up. Just to clear that up)