I'm Melting In Your Eyes

Nat Explodes

Chapter 48
I walked to a bench that was only a few feet away from the bus. I heard some people and didn’t even bother to look up. I didn’t care anymore.
“Nat” I heard then I looked up
“Jenni” I said and got up and hugged her
“what are you doing out here” she asked
“I don’t want to see some girl hitting on my boyfriend” I said
“what’s wrong” gerard asked
“I saw this girl at the pizza parlor down the street and I invited her to hang out with us and I introduced her to everyone and then she started talking to frank. When I introduced her to ray she first gave me this look like why would you interrupt my conversation with frank. And I just couldn’t take it and walked out and I don’t know why frank didn’t come out after me.” I said summing it all up.
“who is this girl” Jenni asked
“her name is Hayley and for some reason I wanted to be friends with her” I said
“oh well lets go back in there and well straighten this out” gerard said
“ok” I said and got up. We walked back to the bus and we got in. everyone was in the same spots as they were when I left.
“look who I found” gerard said
“you found Jenni” ray said
“no the person behind Jenni” gerard said
“Nat?” bob asked
“yea she wasn’t in the bus you retards no one went after her something could have happened to her thank god we were down the street when she walked off this bus.” gerard said angrily
“gerard its ok” I said
“no Nat someone should have gone after you” he said
“gee stop it I’m fine I can fend for myself” I said and gerard turned around and gave me a look
“sorry” I said and he whipped back around
“and who the hell do you think you are” gerard walked over to frank and Hayley
“your way to interested in a conversation with this chick to even notice your girlfriend left” he yelled at frank
“I….” frank started
“maybe shes not good enough for you cause that’s what it seems” gerard said
“don’t even talk to Nat anymore while shes here” gerard said
“gerard stop it frank can talk to me all he wants” I said and again gerard turned around and gave me a look.
“gee stop you don’t have to fight her battles” Jenni said
“but Jenni your friends hurting and your gonna let frank get away with it” gee asked
“yes she is” I said
“Nat am I hurting you” frank asked
“um… no not you” I said and walked off the bus again but this time I didn’t go to the bench I just walked till I was at a store. I didn’t want to deal with this stuff. Who haven’t I talk to in a while I said to my self. Oh Chibu ill call her she always helps me through these types of things.
“hello”
“hey Chibu its me Nat”
“hey Nat haven’t talked to you in awhile” she said
“I know and I know im a bad friend but I need advice” I said
“about frank and that girl Hayley right” she said
“yea bob told you right” I asked
“yea” she said
“so what should I do I want to be friends with Hayley but she wants frank and I think frank might want her” I said
“no frank doesn’t want her bob was telling me that frank was trying to stop the conversation with Hayley but she wouldn’t let it stop” she said
“well gerard thinks im hurt by that but I actually wanted to think things through” I said
“well gees a fag” she said and we laughed
“are you coming out here soon” I asked
“yea soon enough” she said
“ok”
“oh yea what you should do for Hayley try and hook her up with ray he needs someone.” Chibu said and laughed
“yea your right” I said and I was now walking back to the bus.
“k im gonna go cause bobs calling again” she said
“k ill talk to ya later” I said
“k bye love ya” she said
“love ya too” I said and we hung up. I opened the bus door to it being very loud. I walked up and everyone was yelling at each other.
*whistles*
“guys shut the fuck up” I screamed they got quiet when I whistled
“what the fuck is wrong with you guys” I said “ I mean your best friends and your yelling at each other over nothing” I said
“Nat im sorry” frank said
“shut up frank I don’t want an apology” I screamed at him
“Nat calm down” bob said
“no im sick of this I’ve held all my emotions in and im not doing it anymore” I said “ ok mikey and Chrissy and ray and bob and Jenni Im ok with you guys but gerard you need to shut up and let me take care of my own things. Frankie I know what really happened with earlier tonight Im fine with that but I don’t think you understand what’s going through my head. Hayley I know I just met you and for some reason I wanted to be your friend I have no clue why but I did and I invited you to hang with my friends and you flirt with my boyfriend that’s not right” I said slowly calming my self down.
“Nat ill let you fight your own battles I was just trying to help you cause you seemed like you weren’t gonna do anything.” Gerard said
“I wasn’t until I talked to Chibu then I decided to take some actions” I said
“oh” gerard said and shut up.
“Nat im sorry I didn’t mean to do that to you before I knew frank was your boyfriend all I wanted was to be really good friends with frank like you were but when I found out that he was your boyfriend I just wanted to be friends with him” she said
“yea ok then why when he was trying to end a conversation so he could go find me you wouldn’t end the conversation” I asked
“I didn’t know he was trying to end it” she said
“right” I said nicely
“ill leave cause Im causing trouble” she said
“no its ok I mean it” I said
“are you sure cause you seem really mad” she said
“I am but im getting it all out” I said
“Nat” frank said quietly and I whipped to face him. I walked up to him so I was in his face
“frank do you think I want anything from you” I said
“yes” he said
“no frank I wanted to be here to be around you so I wasn’t like this but now I see I was oh so wrong im gonna be a bitch the rest of my life” I said and turned and walked to the back.
“ill be back” frank said and walked after me “Nat im sorry I don’t want you wanting to kill anyone” he said
“frank I already want to kill you I hate you so much right now like I hate everyone else that gives me problems” I said “ I have been so alone for the past 2 months the only time I talked to anyone was when they called me to see if I was alive.” I said
“Nat im sorry I know this isn’t gonna make up for anything but im truly sorry for everything I put you through” he said and he was inches away from my face
“Nat I love you and I don’t want you going through anything like that again” he said and kissed me. I wanted to push him away the voice in the back of my head told me to but I just didn’t. I loved the way his lips felt like on mine.
“god frank im going to kill you tonight” I said after we broke apart
“so your gonna show me what you do when you want to kill someone” he said smiling
“no only when I want to kill you” I said with a small smile
“I love you” he said
“I love you to” I said and just like that the fight was over.