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Kisses and Beatings
There were no words to describe how utterly shocked I was.
“I, um” was perhaps the only form of an intelligible sentence that I could muster.
Brian looked angry, yes, but deep within his chocolate-brown irises was betrayal, and more prominent than anything – fear.
After what seemed to be several minutes, he said, “Fuck,” and ran his hands through his tangled spikes of hair.
I calmed down. “How did you know?”
He stared. “How did I know? Well, I could see you from the front of the school building.
“Oh.”
“I could get fired for this,” he mumbled, distressed.
“Not if you keep it quiet,” I suggested.
“Yeah, I'll really broadcast this through the school,” he snapped.
I sighed. I knew this wasn't a big deal, because he hadn't called me and e-mailed me knowing that I was his students. He was much more embarrassed than angry. Embarrassed enough for both of us.
“Look. This wasn't really my idea, it was – ”
“Your gay boyfriend's. Am I right?” He was trying oh so hard not to smirk.
I nodded. I almost wanted to bring up the tiny detail he had kissed me only minutes before. That would just add to his embarrassment, although I couldn't see how at this point.
“Can we talk?” Brian asked. “I mean, we could go to a coffee shop or something.”
I cringed. “How about a little less public.”
He smirked. There's that smirk I've come to love.
“Would you like a ride?”
“No, I think I'll walk alongside the car.”
**
Brian drove us to a small town by the name of Clearwater. It was a tiny, run-down town that contained a grocery store, and a few connected stores. Brian parked his car around the back of a shop that had been closed down for months.
“Why did you drive us up here?” I questioned as I dragged myself through the rocks.
He shrugged. “Seemed a good place as any.”
“Uh huh.. What did you want to talk about?” I shot back.
He frowned. “Oh, nothing. It's not as if something important just happened or anything.”
“It's as much your fault as it is mine,” I said.
He buried his hands deep within his hoodie pockets. He was frustrated, that much I knew. I had no idea what thoughts were coursing through his mind, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to know. He seemed quite unstable at that moment.
I was backed up casually against the wall, my foot propped up behind me against the concrete. I was content with watching him as he thought out his anger. I wished with all my heart that I could hear what he was thinking.
To hear if he liked me, at least a little bit.
I closed my eyes, as if really wishing, and opened them. Brian was standing directly in front of me, eyes serious as a heart attack.
He lifted a finger and touched her cheek gently. “What are you thinking?” he whispered.
I looked up at him, weariness present in my irises. “This,” I swallowed. “This is illegal.”
“Not if you don't want it to be,” he murmured. “Do you?”
“No,” I whispered.
“Good.”
He sighed, and came inches from leaning his forehead against mine. At least, I thought he was going to do that. Instead, he inhaled and exhaled.
“Just … Don't move, okay?”
I didn't have the chance to nod before his lips crashed down on my own. It wasn't painful, but it wasn't comfortable, either. I wasn't prepared, and he was trying to suffocate me with his mouth, it seemed like.
But I responded.
Our lips moved together almost sloppily. I could tell he was very apprehensive. He placed a trembling hand on my right hip, and his other hand stayed on my cheek firmly. I placed my hands right below his shoulders.
We broke away as we registered the severity of our situation. This was no doubt illegal, no matter what he told me. I was shaking by now, and his eyes told me everything I needed to know in that moment.
I knew he liked me. He had told me himself, but now I was starting to believe what he said. I couldn't understand that at all. I guess it's always the quiet ones.
His expression turned blank after he pulled away. He motioned for me to get into his car. I obeyed.
It was a long, silent drive home.
He didn't say a word to me as I got out of his car half a block to my apartment. All he did was follow me with his eyes. At that point, I didn't mind. I was feeling nothing but numb. I felt as though I was his pleasure doll, even if he had only kissed me twice.
When I opened the front door to find the one person I did not expect to be sitting on my couch.
“Mom?” I asked, completely blown away.
“Hi, sweetheart,” she chirped as she enveloped me in a hug.
I was shocked. She had told me she was spending another week in Washington on her business trip.
“I – I didn't expect you back so soon,” I mumbled.
She waved it off. “Oh, well, your father said he had everything taken care of in Washington, and I thought I'd come back and see how you were.”
“I'm fine,” I snapped. “Just like all the other times you left me to fend for myself.”
Her eyes suggested she was hurt. I felt guilty, but not enough to apologize. I had been through too much in the prior hours to deal with a matter as trivial as this was.
For dramatic effect, I stormed up to my room, not bothering to slam my door, but close it and lock it.
I had a lot of shit to deal with lately.
I lied on my bed for what seemed like hours, I may have even dozed off a few times, because there was a plate of cold pasta on my bed-side table. I started eating almost immediately.
Then, there was a knock at the door.
I jumped up and ran for the door, anxious for any distraction I could get at that moment. I had no idea just how big the distraction would be.
My mom was seated on the couch, and she tossed me a small smile, which I half returned. She let me answer the door, calming waiting.
I opened the door, and there stood Mason, bruises and and shallow cuts marring his tear-stained face. The skin on his arms bore nasty looking gashes, and blood flowed steadily from a few. He was shaking, and his lower lip was busted and trembling.
I gasped.
Mason ran through the threshold and crashed into me, sobbing in the crook of my neck. I wrapped my arms as tightly as I could around his back without hurting him. I stroked his hair softly.
“He hit me,” he sobbed.
“I, um” was perhaps the only form of an intelligible sentence that I could muster.
Brian looked angry, yes, but deep within his chocolate-brown irises was betrayal, and more prominent than anything – fear.
After what seemed to be several minutes, he said, “Fuck,” and ran his hands through his tangled spikes of hair.
I calmed down. “How did you know?”
He stared. “How did I know? Well, I could see you from the front of the school building.
“Oh.”
“I could get fired for this,” he mumbled, distressed.
“Not if you keep it quiet,” I suggested.
“Yeah, I'll really broadcast this through the school,” he snapped.
I sighed. I knew this wasn't a big deal, because he hadn't called me and e-mailed me knowing that I was his students. He was much more embarrassed than angry. Embarrassed enough for both of us.
“Look. This wasn't really my idea, it was – ”
“Your gay boyfriend's. Am I right?” He was trying oh so hard not to smirk.
I nodded. I almost wanted to bring up the tiny detail he had kissed me only minutes before. That would just add to his embarrassment, although I couldn't see how at this point.
“Can we talk?” Brian asked. “I mean, we could go to a coffee shop or something.”
I cringed. “How about a little less public.”
He smirked. There's that smirk I've come to love.
“Would you like a ride?”
“No, I think I'll walk alongside the car.”
**
Brian drove us to a small town by the name of Clearwater. It was a tiny, run-down town that contained a grocery store, and a few connected stores. Brian parked his car around the back of a shop that had been closed down for months.
“Why did you drive us up here?” I questioned as I dragged myself through the rocks.
He shrugged. “Seemed a good place as any.”
“Uh huh.. What did you want to talk about?” I shot back.
He frowned. “Oh, nothing. It's not as if something important just happened or anything.”
“It's as much your fault as it is mine,” I said.
He buried his hands deep within his hoodie pockets. He was frustrated, that much I knew. I had no idea what thoughts were coursing through his mind, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to know. He seemed quite unstable at that moment.
I was backed up casually against the wall, my foot propped up behind me against the concrete. I was content with watching him as he thought out his anger. I wished with all my heart that I could hear what he was thinking.
To hear if he liked me, at least a little bit.
I closed my eyes, as if really wishing, and opened them. Brian was standing directly in front of me, eyes serious as a heart attack.
He lifted a finger and touched her cheek gently. “What are you thinking?” he whispered.
I looked up at him, weariness present in my irises. “This,” I swallowed. “This is illegal.”
“Not if you don't want it to be,” he murmured. “Do you?”
“No,” I whispered.
“Good.”
He sighed, and came inches from leaning his forehead against mine. At least, I thought he was going to do that. Instead, he inhaled and exhaled.
“Just … Don't move, okay?”
I didn't have the chance to nod before his lips crashed down on my own. It wasn't painful, but it wasn't comfortable, either. I wasn't prepared, and he was trying to suffocate me with his mouth, it seemed like.
But I responded.
Our lips moved together almost sloppily. I could tell he was very apprehensive. He placed a trembling hand on my right hip, and his other hand stayed on my cheek firmly. I placed my hands right below his shoulders.
We broke away as we registered the severity of our situation. This was no doubt illegal, no matter what he told me. I was shaking by now, and his eyes told me everything I needed to know in that moment.
I knew he liked me. He had told me himself, but now I was starting to believe what he said. I couldn't understand that at all. I guess it's always the quiet ones.
His expression turned blank after he pulled away. He motioned for me to get into his car. I obeyed.
It was a long, silent drive home.
He didn't say a word to me as I got out of his car half a block to my apartment. All he did was follow me with his eyes. At that point, I didn't mind. I was feeling nothing but numb. I felt as though I was his pleasure doll, even if he had only kissed me twice.
When I opened the front door to find the one person I did not expect to be sitting on my couch.
“Mom?” I asked, completely blown away.
“Hi, sweetheart,” she chirped as she enveloped me in a hug.
I was shocked. She had told me she was spending another week in Washington on her business trip.
“I – I didn't expect you back so soon,” I mumbled.
She waved it off. “Oh, well, your father said he had everything taken care of in Washington, and I thought I'd come back and see how you were.”
“I'm fine,” I snapped. “Just like all the other times you left me to fend for myself.”
Her eyes suggested she was hurt. I felt guilty, but not enough to apologize. I had been through too much in the prior hours to deal with a matter as trivial as this was.
For dramatic effect, I stormed up to my room, not bothering to slam my door, but close it and lock it.
I had a lot of shit to deal with lately.
I lied on my bed for what seemed like hours, I may have even dozed off a few times, because there was a plate of cold pasta on my bed-side table. I started eating almost immediately.
Then, there was a knock at the door.
I jumped up and ran for the door, anxious for any distraction I could get at that moment. I had no idea just how big the distraction would be.
My mom was seated on the couch, and she tossed me a small smile, which I half returned. She let me answer the door, calming waiting.
I opened the door, and there stood Mason, bruises and and shallow cuts marring his tear-stained face. The skin on his arms bore nasty looking gashes, and blood flowed steadily from a few. He was shaking, and his lower lip was busted and trembling.
I gasped.
Mason ran through the threshold and crashed into me, sobbing in the crook of my neck. I wrapped my arms as tightly as I could around his back without hurting him. I stroked his hair softly.
“He hit me,” he sobbed.
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