I'll Bite the Bullet

Jared's POV.

I walked over to the van, hand in hand with Beau. The night was finally over. Time to head to the next city. The last twenty-four hours have been eventful, to say the least. But, I think It's time that all of this actually happened. That everyone was supposed to find out this way. That everyone was gonna be fine with it. Now, I'll be able to absolutely lose myself in him. I can be the hopeless romantic that he deserves. He's everything I've ever wanted. & I don't think I'm ever gonna let him go.

I opened the door of the van and Beau climbed into the very back, as I followed him. He sat down and grabbed my pillow, hugging it. "I'm beginning to think you love that pillow more than you love me." I laughed as he shook his head.

"Nooooo. It's just a pillow. But, it does smell like you. That's why I love it so much!" He beamed his eyes at me and rested his head on my shoulder. I've never felt this secure with anybody. I feel like I have nothing to hide from him. We're in love. That's that.

"Foooooooood?!" Eric yelled, jumping in the van. We were all hungry. We're always hungry. True story.

"Starbucks?" Matt got in the drivers seat of the van, and asked us. Starbucks sounded amazing. It feels like I drink there too much. But, Beau is obsessed with it. So, I kinda have to like it. Hah. We all agreed on Starbucks and were on out way. We decided we'd stop at one a few towns up.

Beau moved his head from my shoulder to my lap and stared up at me. This is the only confortable way to get in this back seat, really.

"I love you, Jared." He lipped the words at me and wrapped his arms around me.

"I love you, too." I said aloud, not caring about the guys being in the van. It was nice to say it and not worry what people thought. Well, the guys at least. They're the only people who know. And whoever else heard me yell it in the venue.

Beau closed his eyes and smiled. He mumbled something else, but I couldn't make his words out. He picked up an earbud for his iPod and handed it to me, signaling for me to put it in my ear. I slowly put it in my ear as he pressed play. I smiled widely at him as "Roll Right Over" by Eye Alaska flooded my ear. It's official. We have a song now.

I'm trying hard to focus tonight but my mind is wandering
So I step outside to catch a breath of air
I needed it
I'm trying to conceal it
But I want to get away tonight
Don't you see you and me don't need anyone?
So lets just turn and leave
You will see oceans bluer when the waves just
Roll right over
We belong together so lets
Roll right over
Making up for lost time baby lets just
Roll right over
Cause we belong together so lets
Roll right over
I'm trying hard to speak but I can't speak proper
So I just shut my mouth and I do what I am told to do
I can't conclude if I should fall in love with you
Maybe what they say is true
"Love is speechless"
Don't you see you and me don't need anyone?
So lets just turn and leave
You will see oceans bluer when the waves just
Roll right over
We belong together so lets
Roll right over
Making up for lost time baby lets just
Roll right over
Cause we belong together so lets
Roll right over
I've never seen the ocean so clear as tonight
It's raining overhead and it's almost just right
But I could make it better if we left tonight
For an island where we could sit and watch the waves just.

As those words left his lips, singing along to the track, I couldn't hel but let my smile get bigger. That was the song that said it all.