Something More

I wanted to make this special

"wow" she said

"uh yeah... I just made my room look a bit nicer" I threw my jacket on the computer chair

she grabbed me by my shirt and unbuttoned the first 5 buttons, I looked at her and she undid the rest and pulled my shirt off.

I kissed her while trying to find the zipper on her dress

Found it.

Once her dress was off, we were on the bed. She pulled my jeans off.

"look yesterday, I can't say it enough... I'm sorry." she kissed me

"I know, it's ok.." I kissed her..

"wait... wait wait how can you forgive me?" I asked

"Nick I told you this yesterday....I love you and I don't want to loose you"

so many things went through my head

I got off of D and laid on my bed

"Nick??"

"I'm sorry.. I just changed my mind about sex"

" uh.. ok..."

I reached in my drawer and handed D a shirt. She put it on and laid next to me

"you want to tell me whats going through your mind?" she asked me

" nothing is...... going. through my. mind"

I loved D. I loved her so much. But... someone else was running through my mind

I pulled her close to my chest

"I love you, D" I told her

I was unbelievably scared, something or somebody was going to ruin our relationship

and I felt like it was going to happen

" I love you too"I kissed her

I wanted her. but with someone else in my mind. it would be wrong to have sex with D while im thinking about some other chick.

thats when it happened. She broke down in my arms

"D... whats wrong"

she didn't answer me

"baby talk to me..."

"nothing... "

"uhm... D.."

" I am going to loose you Nick"

"w...what are you talking about?"

"just... I am ok"

"n..no.. y...you're not, why would you even think.that."

she was obviously thinking what I had just been thinking.

" you aren't going to loose me... I love you"

I held onto her tighter and she fell asleep in my arms, I stroked her hair and sighed