It Takes Someone Special to be a Dad
Famous last words
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I knew there was only one way to end the heartache flooding my entire existence.
I had to end things myself.
I stood up and changed the CD from 'The Black Parade' back to 'Bullets'.
I needed every single lyric and guitar note My Chemical Romance had ever ripped from their black hearts on the off-chance it could save mine.
I took a deep breath and pulled a pad of paper and a pen towards me and stopped.
The pen hovered over the page in anticipation.
How was I going to do this?
I listened to the music for a second and took a deep breath.
The amount of pills I’m taking.
I knew how I was going to do this, I just needed to justify it.
I find it hard to stay.
Gerard’s lyrics seeped into my thoughts and I brought the pen to the paper and let my heart control my hand.
A kiss goodbye.
I paused for a second and listened as Sarah and Sophia left. They didn’t understand yet, but as I brought the pen back to the paper I realised they soon would.
I can’t begin to let you know just what I’m feeling.
I threw one piece of paper to the side and seized another.
Hear me out.
Tears fell steadily as my hand whizzed across the page and I let the lyrics inspire me.
Early sunsets
Early sunsets indeed, mine was fast approaching.
I’ll die alone
The paper soon filled up and I seized another, then another.
I’d end my days with you.
I dropped the sixth piece of paper onto the pile and wondered if Gerard had meant that when he wrote those words.
He certainly wasn’t ending his days with me.
I knew there was only one way to end the heartache flooding my entire existence.
I had to end things myself.
I stood up and changed the CD from 'The Black Parade' back to 'Bullets'.
I needed every single lyric and guitar note My Chemical Romance had ever ripped from their black hearts on the off-chance it could save mine.
I took a deep breath and pulled a pad of paper and a pen towards me and stopped.
The pen hovered over the page in anticipation.
How was I going to do this?
I listened to the music for a second and took a deep breath.
The amount of pills I’m taking.
I knew how I was going to do this, I just needed to justify it.
I find it hard to stay.
Gerard’s lyrics seeped into my thoughts and I brought the pen to the paper and let my heart control my hand.
A kiss goodbye.
I paused for a second and listened as Sarah and Sophia left. They didn’t understand yet, but as I brought the pen back to the paper I realised they soon would.
I can’t begin to let you know just what I’m feeling.
I threw one piece of paper to the side and seized another.
Hear me out.
Tears fell steadily as my hand whizzed across the page and I let the lyrics inspire me.
Early sunsets
Early sunsets indeed, mine was fast approaching.
I’ll die alone
The paper soon filled up and I seized another, then another.
I’d end my days with you.
I dropped the sixth piece of paper onto the pile and wondered if Gerard had meant that when he wrote those words.
He certainly wasn’t ending his days with me.