Prove Your Worth to Me

Have you ever had anyone tell you what happens when you die? You see a light? Your light flashes before your eyes? No...that's a load of bullshit. At least for me it was, but then if God was up there watching, I'm sure he wouldn't have been doing much forgiving. When I was staring down the barrel of that gun (I found out it was a double barrel sawed off shotgun), time seemed to slow down as much as it could without stopping.

This wasn't one of those "slow down time so the good guy can get away" moments either. I felt the wind from the gunpowder exploding in the gun, every burning hot BB ripping through my skin. I went though the pain of going blind, feeling the lead tear through my brain. But most importantly, i could hear her ever-lasting scream as she watched me die. Then, it almost felt as if I was sleeping.

Fuck Thursday.