A love life of a goth

I decided to write a letter to ash to prove to him that i have fallen out of love yet its hard for him to beleive as he still loves me but a cant go on lying to him he needs to know for the better and this is how it went :-

Dear ash,
I'm so tired of being her suppressed by all my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it wont leave me alone and these wounds wont seem to heal this pain is just to real theres just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried i would wipe away all your tears,when you would scream i would fight all of your fears and i have held your hand through these years but you still have all of me you used to captivate me by your resoniting light but now i am board by the life you left behind you face it haunts my once pleasent dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.
I have tried so hard to tell myself are love is gone all my thoughts of you sweet raptured light it ends here tonight.

from siobhan x